Before I knew it he was stroking my legs again and I feel into a dream. I dreamt I was walking along a riverbank. It was me walking but I was also standing in the back ground watching it all play out. All I could see was my back walking away from me. Then to my side a man came running up and picked me up in his arms and spun me around. He gave me the most loving kiss. He whispered something in my ear and I threw my head back and laughed. He turned and I could now see the front of his body…. it was Gunner. He had white linen pants on that were rolled up so the water did not touch them and a grey shirt. He looked like heaven. His smile was that crooked smile that I instantly feel in love with and would do anything to see every day. Just then I turned along with Gunner to start walking back in the direction I was watching my dream…. . somet
hing was different about me but I could not see what it was. I barely could see my face or my body. Everything got blurry. Gunner dropped my hand and started to walk away from me. Wait! Where was he going?! Why was he leaving? He looked so sad.
I heard someone talking to me. It was my mother. . …. Wake up Ellie. . …. you will never be wanted like this Ellie darlin’…. . . He does not want you Ellie wake up…. . . Does not want you……NO! That was not true. I saw the way Gunner looked at me in my dream……he loved me…. . he had to love me….
Ellie sweetheart wakeup…….
Chapter Eight
Gunner…. .
I woke up with a startle. It took me a second to realize I was still on the sofa. Oh man…. my neck was killing me! I must have fallen asleep watching the movie. The movie was over and it was just replaying the main menu over and over again.
Gunner?. . . . . . . Gunner don’t go!……NO! He does, you are wrong…. . you are wrong! Gunnerrrrr!
What the hell?! I looked over and Ellie was dreaming, if you could call it that. She was calling out my name in her dream! Holy shit! She sounded scared to death. I jumped up careful not to knock her off the sofa. I pushed the coffee table a little out of the way and I knelt down next to her and started to stroke her hair……
“Ellie Sweetheart wakeup, Ellie wake up, sweetheart please wake up. ”
FUCK! My heart was pounding a mile a minute. What the fuck was she dreaming about and where the fuck was I going?! I would never leave her…. ever!
“Ellie Sweetheart wakeup. ” Ellie’s eyes opened suddenly and she looked right at me. Next thing I knew she started to cry and sat up and threw herself into my arms. She was crying hysterically and I was really fucking freaked out. I was going to kick my ass if I hurt her in a dream. I couldn’t possible fuck this up in goddamn dream……. could I?
“OH MY GOD! Gunner……” Ellie cried out in-between sobs.
“SHHH Ellie it’s okay, everything is okay, I’m here sweetheart and I’m not going anywhere. I promise. ” Just then Ellie pulled back and looked at me. Her eyes were filled with tears and she looked so goddamned confused. She shook her head no for a second and just stared at me.
“No one will ever want me Gunner, or stay with me…. . . ever. ” She whispered.
What the hell? My god, what did her mother do to her?
“Ellie sweetheart that’s just not true. ”
I pushed a lock of her hair behind her ear. My god she was even beautiful when she was crying. The only thing I wanted to do at that moment was take away her fear and doubts. To show her how much she was wanted. I looked down to her soft tear soaked lips and licked my own lips. I started to lean in to kiss her and I heard the front door lock move. Ellie must have heard it also because she quickly pulled out of my embrace and sat back just staring at me with this lost look on her face.
Jeff walked in and surveyed what he saw.
“What’s going on? Ellie? Are you okay? Did you hurt your hand again?” Jeff said as he looked back and forth between the two of us.
“No…. um…no” Ellie struggled to talk and was shaking her head as if trying to erase a memory. She quickly wiped away her tears and looked up at Jeff. He looked back at her and snapped his head over to me.
“What the fuck did you do to her Gunner?”
Wait……What??
I quickly stood up and turned to Jeff. “I didn’t do a damn thing! We fell asleep watching a movie and she just woke up crying out from a dream. She literally just woke up crying. ”
I left out the part where she was crying out my name. I mean I was not in the mood to get my ass kicked for hurting her in a fucking dream.
“Jefferson! Gunner has been nothing but a gentleman to me all day and night! I can’t even believe you would think he would do something to make me cry!” Ellie was sobbing even more now. Jeff looked at Ellie and back at me.
“Dude man, I know you would never, it’s just I walked in here and she is crying and…. . fuck. ” Jeff said as he knelt down at the edge of the sofa. I pushed the coffee table back out of the way.
“Ellie honey what is going on? Why are you so upset? Is this about Ryan?” Jeff asked as he moved to sit down next to Ellie on the sofa. Ellie’s face flew up to meet mine. She looked so confused and upset. My stomach was in my throat and for some reason I felt like I was going to get sick. I needed to go outside and get some air.
“I’m going to step outside a minute and get some fresh air. ” I said as I moved to the front door.
“NO!” Ellie shouted and stopped me in my tracks.