Clockwork Prince (The Infernal Devices 2) - Page 47

"That I Will die," Jem said. His eyes were wide, and fever-bright; there was a trace of blood, still, at the corner of his mouth. The shadows under his eyes were nearly blue.

Will dug his fingers into Jems wrist, denting the material of his shirt. Jem did not wince.

"You swore to stay with me," he said. "When we made our oath, as parabatai. Our souls are knit. We are one person, James. "

"We are two people," said Jem. "Two people with a covenant between us. "

Will knew he sounded like a child, but he could not help it. "A covenant that says you must not go where I cannot come with you. "

"Until death," Jem replied gently. "Those are the words of the oath. Until aught but death part thee and me. Someday, Will, I Will go where none can fol ow me, and I think it Will be sooner rather than later. Have you ever asked yourself why I agreed to be your parabatai?"

"No better offers forthcoming?" Will tried for humor, but his voice cracked like glass.

"I thought you needed me," Jem said. "There is a wal you have built about yourself, Will, and I have never asked you why. But no one should shoulder every burden alone. I thought you would let me inside if I became your parabatai, and then you would have at least someone to lean upon. I did wonder what my death would mean for you. I used to fear it, for your sake. I feared you would be left alone inside that wall. But now . . . something has changed. I do not know why. But I know that it is true. "

"That what is true?" Will s fingers were still digging into Jems wrist.

"That the wal is coming down. "

Tessa could not get to sleep. She lay unmoving on her back, staring up at the ceiling. There was a crack across the plaster of it that looked sometimes like a cloud and sometimes like a razor, depending on the shift of the candlelight.

Dinner had been tense. Apparently Gabriel had told Charlotte that he refused to return and partake in the training anymore, so it was going to be only Gideon working with her and Sophie from now on. Gabriel had refused to say why, but it was clear Charlotte blamed Will ; Tessa, seeing how exhausted Charlotte looked at the prospect of more conflict with Benedict, had felt heavy with guilt for having brought Will with her to the training, and for having laughed at Gabriel.

It did not help that Jem had not been at dinner. She had wanted so badly to speak to him today. After he had avoided her eyes at breakfast and then been "il " at dinner, panic had twisted her stomach. Was he horrified by what had happened between them the night before-or worse, sickened? Maybe in his secret heart of hearts, he felt as Will did, that warlocks were beneath him. Or maybe it had nothing to do with what she was. Maybe he was simply repel ed by her wantonness; she had welcomed his embraces, not pushed him away, and hadnt Aunt Harriet always said that men were weak where desire was concerned, and that women were the ones who had to exercise restraint?

She hadnt exercised much last night. She remembered lying beside Jem, his gentle hands on her. She knew with a painful inner honesty that if things had continued, she would have done whatever he wanted. Even now, thinking about it, her body felt hot and restless; she shifted in bed, punching one of the pil ows. If she had destroyed the closeness she shared with Jem by all owing what had happened last night, she would never forgive herself.

She was about to bury her face in the pil ow, when she heard the noise. A soft rapping at the door. She froze. It came again, insistently. Jem. Her hands shaking, she leaped from the bed, ran to the door, and threw it open.

On the threshold stood Sophie. She wore her black housemaids dress, but her white cap had come askew and her dark curls were tumbling down.

Her face was very white and there was a spot of blood on her col ar; she looked horrified and almost sick.

"Sophie. " Tessas voice betrayed her surprise. "Are you all right?"

Sophie looked around fearful y. "May I come in, miss?"

Tessa nodded and held the door open for her. When they were both safely inside, she bolted it and sat down on the edge of her bed, apprehension like a lead weight in her chest. Sophie remained standing, twisting her hands in front of her.

"Sophie, please, what is it?"

"Its Miss Jessamine," Sophie burst out.

"What about Jessamine?"

"She . . . Its just to say, Ive seen her . . . " She broke off, looking wretched.

"Shes been slipping away in the nights, miss. "

"Has she? I saw her last night, in the corridor, dressed as a boy and looking quite furtive. . . . "

Sophie looked relieved. She didnt like Jessamine, Tessa knew that well enough, but she was a well -trained maid, and a well -trained maid did not tattle on her mistress. "Yes," she said eagerly. "Ive been noticing it for days now. Her bed sometimes not slept in at all, mud on the rugs in the mornings when it werent there the night before. I wouldve told Mrs. Branwell, but shes had so dreadful much on her mind, I couldnt bear to. "

"So why are you tell ing me?" Tessa asked. "It sounds as if Jessamines found herself a suitor. I cant say I approve of her behavior, but"-she swal owed, thinking of her own behavior the night before-"neither of us is responsible for it. And perhaps there is some harmless explanation. . . . "

"Oh, but, miss. " Sophie plunged her hand into the pocket of her dress and drew it out with a stiff cream-colored card clamped between her fingers.

"Tonight I found this. In the pocket of her new velvet jacket. You know, the one with the ecru stripe. "

Tessa did not care about the ecru stripe. Her eyes were fixed on the card.

Slowly she reached out and took it, turning it over in her hand. It was an invitation to a ball.

July 20, 1878 Mr. BENEDICT LIGHTWOOD presents his compliments to MISS JESSA MINE LOVELA CE, and requests the honor of her company at a masquerade ball given on Tuesday next, the 27th of July. RSVP.

The invitation went on to give details of the address and the time the bal would begin, but it was what was written on the back of the invitation that froze Tessas blood. In a casual hand, as familiar to her as her own, were scrawled the words: My Jessie. My very heart is bursting at the thought of seeing you tomorrow night at the "great affair. " However great it may be, I shall have eyes for nothing and no one but you. Do wear the white dress, darling, as you know how I like it-"in gloss of satin and glimmer of pearls," as the poet said. Yours always, N. G.

"Nate," Tessa said numbly, staring down at the letter. " Nate wrote this. And quoted Tennyson. "

Sophie drew her breath in sharply. "I feared-but I thought it couldnt be.

Not after all he did. "

"I know my brothers handwriting. " Tessas voice was grim. "Hes planning to meet her tonight at this-this secret ball. Sophie, where is Jessamine? I must speak to her this instant. "

Sophies hands began to twist more rapidly. "See, thats the thing, miss-"

"Oh, God, has she gone already? Wel have to get Charlotte. I dont see another way-"

"She hasnt gone. Shes in her room," Sophie interrupted.

"So she doesnt know you found this?" Tessa flapped the card.

Sophie swal owed visibly. "I-she found me with it in my hand, miss. I tried to hide it, but shed already seen it. She had such a menacing look on her face when she came reaching for it, I couldnt help myself. all the training sessions Ive done with Master Gideon, they just took over and, well -"

"Well, what? Sophie-"

"I hit her on the head with a mirror," Sophie said hopelessly. "One of those silver-backed ones, so it was quite heavy. She went down just like a stone, miss. So I . . . I tied her to the bed and I came looking for you. "

"Let me see if I have this quite correct," said Tessa after a pause.

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