Her arms tightened across her chest, but the look she gave me turned gentler. The hatred faded away, and she gave me a new look entirely. “The only reason you’re telling me this is because it’s affecting your work?”
I nodded. “I guess.”
“How do I know you aren’t lying to me?”
I shrugged. “I guess you don’t. But I’m not. I’m far more embarrassed telling you this than sleeping with someone else…so that doesn’t add up.”
She looked forward again.
“Muse?” I whispered.
“What does this mean?” she whispered back. “What do you want?”
“I want what we had before…but now I’m telling you I’m committed to you. I won’t be with anyone else. Just you.”
“Because you care about me?”
“Yes.”
“What else does it entail?”
I knew what she was really asking. “I’m not looking for romance or love. I’m not really looking for anything. All I know is, I only want to be with you. It doesn’t mean I’m your boyfriend or I’ll be your husband someday. It just means…that it’s only the two of us. There’s no one else but you and me. I don’t want you to expect anything more because it won’t come. But I’ll be your friend, your partner, and I’ll always be faithful to you. And of course, I’ll be honest.”
“You weren’t honest before.”
“I know, but I will be now.”
She pulled her knees to her chest.
I was hoping for a stronger reaction than this. “I’ll give you everything you want. You have my respect, my friendship, and my fidelity.”
She was still quiet.
“What is it, Muse?”
“It’s just taking me a second to process this.”
“What is there to process?”
“I was so hurt when I thought you were with someone else…” She closed her eyes for a moment. “It’s such a relief to know that you weren’t…and it’s taking me a second to process that feeling.”
Somehow, that made me feel even worse. I scooted closer to her on the couch and wrapped my arm around her shoulders. I pulled her into me and looked down into her face, seeing her thick eyelashes curl toward the ceiling. “Why does it hurt you so much?” She enjoyed my company and my body, but I didn’t suspect she loved me. After what I did to her, how could she?
“I don’t know. I guess it made me feel like I wasn’t good enough for you. You tell me how amazing I am, but then you look for satisfaction between another woman’s legs…and then I was afraid you would give me a disease or something.”
I rested my head against hers. “And that’s all.”
She paused for a long time. “You say you’re jealous because you don’t want to share me with the world…” Her hand moved to mine. “And I guess I’m jealous too. I don’t want to share you with anyone.”
I interlocked my fingers with hers. Hearing her admit she was jealous gave me a sense of power. It made me feel like we were equal, like we cared about each other in the same way. I was jealous any time a man looked at her, and that was the reason I hid her away from the world. She felt the same way…and that gave us a new connection.
A connection to start over.
“Can I kiss you again?”
She tilted her head up to look at me. “You want to kiss me?”
I stared at her lips, missing them since the moment they’d been taken away. I’d taken her kiss for granted, not understanding how much I needed it before it was yanked away. “Yes.”
Finally, she smiled. Her eyes lit up the way they used to, and she softened into my side. “Then kiss me.”
* * *
Muse was on my bed, propped up on her elbows with her beautiful tits looking perky and delicious. Her stomach was flat and toned from working outside all the time, and her long legs stretched to the end of the bed.
I grabbed her thong with both hands and slowly pulled it down her legs, staring at her nub once it was revealed. Her pussy had never looked so beautiful. I could see the gleam from her slit, the arousal that started before I even touched her.
I wrapped her thong around my dick, letting the soft, warm fabric stimulate me more.
She opened her legs wide, beckoning to me.
If I weren’t so hard up, I’d fall to my knees and devour her pussy. Right now, I wanted to devour her lips with mine. I wanted to push my dick inside her, to feel that moisture she produced all on her own.
I crawled up the bed and moved between her legs. I locked my arms behind her knees and guided her back until she was flat against the bed. Her nipples were hard, and her chest was flushed pink. I held myself on top of her and rubbed my cock between her folds. She was so wet, I could already feel it.