Servant of the Bones - Page 72

There wasn't even a sensible particle of fear in him. Indeed the wonder he knew now seemed the kernel of his person, the part of him which had always defied the Rebbe and had defied a legion of others, and would defy me. The wonder in him was . . . what? The monstrous arrogance of an Emperor?

"I am not the Master?" he asked me.

I looked at him calmly. I was thinking about him in wholly new ways, not ways of rage, but ways of wanting to know: who and what was he? Had he killed her? What if he had not?

"I say not, Gregory," I answered his question. "You're not the Master. But then I don't know everything. Ghosts must be forgiven that they know so much and so little at the same time."

"Rather like mortal men," he said with a delicate touch of sadness. "And were you ever one of them?"

A chill caught me off guard, rippling over new skin. Dimness. The cries of people echoing up glazed brick walls. I shook myself all over.

Certainly I had once been a mortal man! And so what.

I was here now in the car with him. The process of incarnation continued in me, with the thickening of the sinews and the deepening of the minerals within the new bones which were now in my fleshly body, and the hair that formed on the backs of my arms and on my fingers, and the soft remnant of beard on my cheek.

And this process had to be of my doing. He sang no songs to make it happen; he recited no chants. He didn't even know it was happening. If there was an alchemy coming from him, it was the alchemy of his expression, his wonder, his obvious love.

Again came the dimness. It came swift and titanic-a procession, a great street with high blue-glazed walls, and the scent of flowers everywhere, and people waving, and a dreadful sadness, so bitter, so total, that for one moment I felt myself begin to dissolve.

The car around me seemed insubstantial, which meant that I was leaving it.

In the memory I raised my arm and voices cried in praise. My god wouldn't look at me. My god turned his back on me and on the procession, and he wept.

I shook my head. Gregory Belkin was watching all this, keenly sensing it.

"Something troubles you, Spirit," he said gently. "Or is it merely so hard to become flesh again?"

I took hold of the door handle. I looked at the glass and at my face.

I was the one who made myself stay.

The car shuddered and rumbled as it moved over the roughened street. He took no notice. But new light had come in from both sides, penetrating even the black glaze of the windows, and it showed how jubilant he was, and how easy, and how young he looked in his wonder and joy.

"Very well," he said with charm, eyebrows lifted, "so I am not the Master. Then tell me, beautiful one, and you are quite the handsome Spirit, why have you come to me?"

Once again, his teeth flashed white and there seemed a moment near magical when the various ornaments he wore-small and made of gold, at his wrists, on his tie-flickered as if struck by a note of music, and he looked very good, as good perhaps as he thought I looked. Masters. . . . Who were masters to me? Old men?

I spoke before I thought. "There was never a Master as brave as you, Gregory," I said, "not that I can remember, though so much lies beyond my reach. No, your bravery is different, and fresh. And you are not the Master. It seems like it or not, that I have come to you on my own and for m) reasons."

This pleased him immensely.

I grew warmer and I felt the fibers of my clothes against me, I fel the snug certainty of being there. My foot flexed in my shoe.

"I like that you're not afraid of me," I said. "I like that you know what I am from the start as any Master might, but you're not the Master. I've been watching you. I've been learning things from you.

"Have you?" he said. He did not so much as flinch. He was in near ecstasy. "Tell me what you've seen." At the moment it seemed ther was only one thing he found more fascinating than me, and that was himself.

I smiled at him. He wasn't a man unused to happiness. He knew well how to enjc things, both minute and momentous. And though nothing like that had ever happened to him, his life had educated him to enjoy this toy

"Yes," he said, smiling broadly. "Yes!"

I hadn't spoken. We both knew it. Yet he had read my thought

What else is in there to read, I wonder?

The big car slid to a stop.

I was glad. I was frightened by his charm, frightened by the fa that I warmed to him, frightened that somehow in talking to him gained strength. He didn't have to want it or wish it, only perhaps witness it. But this I couldn't tolerate. I had been there when Esd died and he had not. He had not been there to see me, yet I had be strong enough to take the lives of her killers each in turn.

He stared out the windows, to the right and left. An imrnei crowd surrounded us, roaring, shouting, pushing up against the car that it rocked suddenly on its wheels as a boat in water.

He was not concerned. He turned and looked at me. I felt the dimness come again, because this crowd reminded me of that old crowd, the crowd attending the procession, and the petals falling in the light, the incense rising, and people on the flat rooftops, standing at the very edge, with their arms outstretched.

Jonathan, you know now what I remembered, but I didn't remember then, you see. It was confusion. It was as if something were trying to force me to see my existence as a continuum. But I didn't trust it. I must have been very close to Zurvan's teachings a thousand times over the years and never knew it, never remembering Zurvan. Why else did I want to avenge this girl? Why else did I despise the Rebbe for his lack of mercy on me? Why else was this man's evil fascinating me so much that I hadn't already killed him?

He broke in with his gentle, beguiling voice.

"And so we're here, at my home, Azriel," he said.

He pulled me back fast.

"We are at my very door." He made a dreamy, weary gesture towards the people on either side of us. "Don't let them frighten you. I must invite you, please, to come in."

I saw rows of lighted windows high above.

The doors of the car had been unlocked with a loud distinct click. Now someone meant to open the door to my right and his left. In a split second, I saw a pathway made for him, beneath an awning. Ropes hung from bronze stanchions held back the multitude. There were television cameras bearing down upon us. I saw men in uniforms restraining those who screamed and cheered.

"But can they see you?" Gregory asked now, confidentially, as if we shared a secret.

It was a break in an almost perfect chain of gestures for him. Out of generosity I was tempted to let it go. But I didn't.

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