Billionaire Mountain Man - Page 484

“That must’ve been such a hard thing for all of you,” Allie said. “I can’t even begin to imagine.”

“It was really hard. For my mother, especially. I had just finished my residency, and I was thinking about what my next steps were going to be, where I wanted to go, and then all this happened. But, you know, I really did what I felt like I had to do. For a time, I thought that maybe my parents were going to be the ones to raise Declan, but it was obvious they just couldn’t do it. They could be there to help out financially if need be, and they’d take him out every Sunday, but doing the whole raising a child again? They just couldn’t do it. Not again, not after what had happened. Not because they didn’t want to or anything, but I just knew they wouldn’t be able to do it.”

It felt undeniably strange to be speaking these words out loud to someone, yet I also felt an overwhelming sense of relief. As if I’d been needing to confess this, like talking about it would somehow absolve me from something.

But what? If I felt I needed to be absolved, wasn’t that admitting that I had done something wrong?

“Oh, Cole,” Allie said.

Originally, the plan was for Marissa to go away, have the baby, and come back. She’d live with my parents, and they would help her raise him. If Sam or his family ever got word that she had a baby and figured out that it was his, my parents were going to offer him money to go away. They figured if they offered enough, he would, and if they had to, they would move, somewhere that Sam would never be able to find them. But I think they knew that because of how he was now, and because of the limited resources his family had, that they wouldn’t do something like that to begin with. But Marissa killed herself, and everything sort of fell apart.”

“So whose idea was it?” Allie asked. “The whole thing just seems so... I don’t know, so crazy.”

“It is,” I said, “and at the same time, it isn’t. It’s just kind of what had to happen. Declan was born at the treatment center, and Marissa stayed there for a few weeks after he was born. She was on methadone at that point, so when he was born, he was addicted to opioids, too. He went through withdrawal, and it was awful. My parents had gone up there when she’d gone into labor, and I could tell after I talked to my mother on the phone that she was not going to be able to handle any of this. She had this whole idea in her mind about how things were going to be, but that was so far from the truth. I mean, they would have done it if I said I wouldn’t, but it would’ve been so hard on them. Getting to see Declan

every week like they do works for them. They wouldn’t want to hear me say it like this, but they’re too old to be raising a little kid again.”

Then we were both quiet, watching the fireflies. I did feel better. I felt as though a weight had been lifted from me, as though talking about it like this was what I had needed to do all along.

“Come with me,” I said to Allie.

I got up, and she followed me inside. We went upstairs, and I closed the bedroom door, twisting the lock in the doorknob, too, though Declan rarely ever got up in the middle of the night. Allie and I sat down on the edge of the bed, and I brought my hand up to the side of her face. There was enough moonlight spilling in through the window that I could see her features, I could see the way her eyes closed when I touched her, how she started to smile. I put my other arm around her back, pulling her toward me. I cupped her chin and tilted her head back a little, and then we began to kiss. She was tentative at first, as though she was afraid I was going to push her away at any moment and say I had changed my mind about us getting back together. But then it was as if a switch had been flipped, and she was pressing her mouth against mine, her hands going to my lap, grabbing for my cock through my pants.

My own hands moved down to her breasts, my fingers first feeling her through the thin fabric of her shirt, then pulling the shirt off, reaching around to unhook her bra. She shrugged her shoulders out of it, and I made a trail of kisses from her throat to her left breast, and I slowly ran my tongue over and around her nipple, squeezing her other breast in my hand. I felt her nipple tighten in my mouth, and Allie groaned softly. I pulled my own shirt off, and we laid back on the bed. I slid my hand down between her legs, feeling her grab my cock and give it a squeeze. She was wet, and I was easily able to slide two fingers into her; her muscles clenched around them as I did so. She pressed her hips against me, moved her ass back and forth, working herself up and down on my fingers. I didn’t even have to move my hand, though I did after a moment, twisting my wrist enough so I could rub her clit with my thumb. She bit into my shoulder, trying to muffle the sounds she was making.

After a minute, I pulled my hand away and took my pants off. She lay on her back, and I positioned myself over her, felt the head of my cock pushing up against her warm wetness. Oh, I had missed that feeling. I slowly eased myself in, and once I was all the way in, I lowered down onto my forearms, and we started to kiss, a long, slow kiss, mouths open wide, tongues entwined with each other. While we did this, I began to rock my hips in and out, breathing deeply through my nose, my whole body engulfed with a tingling pleasure that settled over my body like a fine mist.

We stopped kissing and looked at each other, keeping our gazes locked as I continued to fuck her. Doing so made it seem like a completely new experience, seemed to elevate it to a whole new level. I’d looked girls in the eyes before when we’d had sex, but never this long, never with someone that I felt this strongly about. It seemed to intensify everything, and I had to slow down so I wouldn’t climax too early.

She was biting down hard on her lip, trying not to make any sounds, but little whimpers still managed to escape. My breathing got heavier, faster, and part of me wanted to squeeze my eyes shut, grit my teeth, and just chase that feeling until I caught it and was obliterated by it, but I made myself go slow and held her gaze. All sorts of things were happening down there around my cock; she was warm, gushingly wet, slippery like a sponge, except she was so tight that I wasn’t going anywhere. It was the most remarkably pleasurable array of sensations that I could ever recall feeling.

“I love you,” I said. I wanted to say it to her, but not when I was climaxing, because that of course would seem like such a cliché and could be taken as something that was just said in the moment; I wanted her to know that I really meant it, that it wasn’t just something I was saying because I was being overpowered by good feelings.

“I love you, too,” she gasped, and she reached around and grabbed my ass, pulling me to her, hard, and I could tell she was close to coming, so I let myself just go for it, and it was like we were both riding the same wave, so when it peaked, we were there together; it was happening at the exact same time.

I stayed there on top of her long after we had climaxed, her arms wrapped around me. Finally, I rolled over onto my side, but I reached out and took her hand as we lay next to each other.

“You can stay,” I said. “Stay the night. I don’t want to let you go. I want you right here in my arms tomorrow morning.”

“But... what about Declan?”

“It’s okay. If we’re back together now, then there’s really no point in not letting him know that. Plus, he’ll be so excited to see you. He’s missed you.”

“I’ve missed him, too.”

She curled herself up next to me and sighed in contentment. Not just the postcoital sort of contentment, either, but something deeper than that. Everything felt right again, and it was an immense relief. That’s what it was—underneath all the other feelings, the happiness, the after-sex buzz, was the feeling of relief.

We were up early in the next day, even though I wouldn’t have minded staying in bed all day long. When Declan came downstairs, Allie was sitting at the kitchen table with a cup of coffee, and I was mixing batter together for waffles. He stood there in the doorway for a minute, blinking, looking as if he thought he might still be dreaming.

“Miss Allie?” he said.

“Good morning, Declan.”

Declan looked from her to me, then a huge smile broke out onto his face. “Are you making waffles, Dad?” he asked.

“Yes, I am,” I said. “So, I hope you’re hungry.”

“Did you sleep over last night?” Declan asked Allie, as he climbed up onto the chair next to her. “You look like you’re in your pajamas.”

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