“I have decided, I can’t see you anymore, it’s not fair to you, to put you in jeopardy like that,” he said as he bowed his head.
“You can’t just come out with a comment like that, in the case something did happen, we could work through it,” I said as I tried to understand the enormity of what he had just said.
“I can’t, Kendall.”
“So that’s that then? It’s over? You’re just walking away from me as if nothing has happened?” I shouted at him.
“It’s the only solution I can think of, and that’s what I have decided is best for us. For you,” he said as he walked toward his car door.
I stood in shock and as Elijah drove away.
I couldn’t believe he showed no emotion when he explained the situation and the decision he made that concerned me. It had all seemed really easy to him, and now he had just walked away from it, and from me.
I turned and walked to the house with Bo, he climbed on the couch, and I curled up beside him, “Bo, why have I been so stupid?” I said to him.
I laid on the couch and cuddled Bo. I was speechless about the whole situation. How could Elijah just brush me off the way he had? The more I thought about it, the more I started to hate myself for trusting him, for falling for him.
In love with him!
I should have listened to my mom and Mandy. They had both warned me this could happen.
Oh no!!
Chapter Thirty-One
Elijah
I slowly opened my eyes and the thoughts of yesterday filled my mind, but I had to block them out. I had to concentrate on the business and getting my life back to normal. I rolled over in the bed and looked at the empty space where Kendall had spent a few nights. Reaching over, I ran my hand over the bed sheets where she’d been.
I swung my legs out of bed and made my way to the shower. I looked in the mirror and could see a shell of a man standing looking at me. What would happen with my life?
I jumped in the shower and let the hot water flood my body, my nerves tingled as the water cascaded over my body, and the last ounces of sleep left my body. I could feel today would be a strange day, yet I had to get with it. I entered the closet and looked at all the clothes that laid before me. I wanted to choose something that wouldn’t remind me of Kendall and something that would make me feel comfortable.
I got dressed and headed downstairs and imagined Kendall as she opened the door for Bo, but there was no pitter-patter of paws on the kitchen floor, it was just deadly silent. I made a coffee and sat alone at the table, and I imagined the laughter that Kendall had brought to the house. It had reverted to a cold and lonely home as if Kendall had just been a ghost from the past.
I arrived at the office and headed up the elevator, and rather than heading to my office, I walked around the shipping department to see how the early shift had been functioning.
“Morning Elijah,” Jefferson said from behind his computer screen.
“Hey Jefferson, I didn’t think you were on this shift?” I replied.
“I changed for the week, they were one short due to Skyler being ill, so I offered to fill in,” he replied.
“That was good of you, so how is it going?” I asked as I pulled up a chair.
“Things are pretty good at the moment,” he said as he removed his headset.
“Glad to hear it, so tell me, Jefferson, how is the mood of the staff these days?” I asked.
“Oh, it’s much better, and don’t say anything, but I have not heard anyone say they want to leave, but you never heard that from me,” he whispered.
“Never,” I whispered.
I spoke to Jefferson about the staff and how they had been after the party, he had said there had been a total turn around in their attitude to me. At first, they had been skeptical, yet they had seen I had really changed from the complete dick I used to be. Many of the staff would also be more comfortable to open up to me and chat on a normal basis rather than thinking I would blow my top and threaten them with being terminated or punished.
“Can I ask you something?” Jefferson said.
“Yep, shoot.”