“Is that a real question?”
“Sure. I mean, he didn’t physically hurt you. He didn’t kill anyone in your family. He didn’t kill Nix, at least as far as we know. … And I don’t think he has, even now. ”
“He …,” Benny began, but faltered. “Because of Mr. Sacchetto and Nix’s mom. Because of what he might be doing to Nix. What kind of question is that?”
“So, you want to kill him for revenge?”
Benny didn’t answer. Apache blew loudly, scaring some robins from the grass.
“Will that bring Rob Sacchetto or Jessie Riley back from the dead? Will it fix Morgie’s head or guarantee that we’ll find Nix safe and unharmed?”
“No, but—”
“So, why do you want Charlie dead? What good will it do?”
“Why do you want him dead?” Benny snapped, frustrated by Tom’s questions.
“We’re not discussing me,” said Tom. “We can, but we’re not right now. ”
Benny said, “Charlie’s hurting people that I care about, and last night we agreed that Charlie’s going to come after us. To shut us up or whatever. He knows that we know, and he knows that we’re not going to let it go, even if the court clears him. ”
“Right,” said Tom. “Charlie’s smart enough to have figured that out. So … you want to kill him to prevent him from killing you?”
“Us, not just me. But, yeah. That makes sense, man. Doesn’t
it?”
“Sadly, yes, it does. ”
“Why sadly?”
“Because it’s the way things still seem to be among us humans. Like Leroy Williams said, we never seem to learn. ”
“What’s the alternative? Do nothing and let Charlie kill us?”
“No. I’m a pacifist by inclination, but I have my limits. And on top of that I’m not a martyr. ”
“So, you intend to kill Charlie?”
Tom’s eyes were black ice. “Yes. ”
“So why are you grilling me on this stuff, Tom?”
“Because the things that happened yesterday just kicked you into the same world as the Lost Girl. There’s some logic to it, even some justice in it, but the more you walk in that world, the more damage it’s going to do. And I don’t think there’s a way for us to turn back. Not anymore. ”
“What do you mean?”
“The bodies that I found. The girl wasn’t just trying to kill a certain person or a certain type of person. She was trying to punish the image of that person that existed in her mind. Something had been done to her that was so bad, so tragic, that it changed her—maybe forever. Revenge isn’t really enough of a word to explain what she’s feeling and why she’s doing what she’s doing. It’s more like an infection of the spirit, and it distorts everything she sees and everything she does. ”
“So,” Benny said, sorting through it, “she’s trying to kill the idea of this guy? That she’s trying to kill the infection by killing what caused it?”
Tom cut a sharp look at Benny.
“What?” asked Benny.
“That may have been the smartest thing you ever said, kiddo. It shows that you have insight. Yes, that’s exactly what Lilah is doing. ”
“So … who’s the guy she’s trying to kill?”