He’s mine again. He will always be mine.
When I rolled off of him, he took me in his arms, and I felt myself going to sleep, falling into a dream.
On my way to the bonfire, Ari reached out and grabbed my arm.
“Maybe you and I should take a walk, Heather. ”
“Why? It’s getting cold, and I just want to sit by the fire. ”
Ari looked back over at the fire. When I followed her eyes, I saw Josh and Victoria hugging. My stomach turned, and I wanted to throw up.
Then, it happened. He dropped to one knee and held out a ring box. Victoria’s hand flew up to her mouth as she let out a small scream.
My eyes moved from her to Josh. When he glanced over at me, I wanted to scream, No!
But I couldn’t move.
“Heather? Heather! Baby, please wake up!”
“No! No, you can’t marry her! You love me! No!” I sat up with sweat pouring off of me. Oh my god! I had the dream again. It was the same stupid dream I’d been having for the last few weeks. Shit! I placed my hand on my chest. I can’t breathe.
“Baby, take a deep breath. ” Josh wrapped his arms around me.
Oh, thank you, God. He’s with me.
“Jesus, Heather, you scared the shit out of me. What in the hell were you dreaming about?” Josh asked as he ran his hand through my hair.
I shook my head. “Nothing. Just a nightmare that I’m hoping I never have again. ” I looked up and smiled at him.
“Shit, I hope not. ”
I felt his hand move up and down my side. I started to get that familiar ache between my legs. I would have to ask Ari if this was just a part of being pregnant or if it was just because I’d missed Josh so much. Either way, I wanted him again. I glanced up at the clock and saw it was six in the morning. When I looked back at him, he smiled and tapped my nose with his finger.
“Want to go take a shower?” I asked, scrunching up my nose.
He laughed. “Again?”
I nodded and smiled. “It’s such a big shower, and I don’t want to be in there all alone. ”
“Shit, Heather. I never knew my equipment could perform so much. I’m really happy about it and all, but baby, this’ll be the fourth time. I don’t want you to be sore. ”
I pushed him onto his back and crawled on top of him. I rubbed against him until I felt him growing hard. I bent over and kissed one nipple and then the other before I jumped off of him.
“Okay. Well, you know where I’ll be if you change your mind,” I said over my shoulder as I winked at him and made my way into the shower.
After we made love in the shower, we got dressed, and then I finally gave Josh a tour of the house. I made us breakfast, and we ate it on the back deck. We talked about Josh wanting a dog, and I answered a million questions he had about us.
It was a perfect morning. It almost felt like things were back to normal. Josh went back upstairs to get ready to leave since he was heading to his apartment today to grab a few things and finish packing to move in with me.
I smiled, thinking about when he’d asked if he could still move in. I really need to tell him about the baby. I’m so scared he’s going to think I’m trying to trap him.
“Hey, you look like you’re a million miles away. ”
I stood up and walked over to him. I just need to tell him. “Um…Josh, I kind of want to talk to you about something. ”
“Sure, princess. Anything you want to talk about, I’m all ears,” he said with a smile.
Just as I was about to start, my cell phone rang. I glanced down and saw it was Amanda. Shit! She was on her way to see Brad, and I was sure she was upset.