Somehow in the last sixty seconds it hit me. I was not meant to be happy or find love. Just like my mother told me when I was younger.
I will never be wanted.
Not by anyone, let alone by one of the most popular boys in the senior class. What a fool I had been. Argh, I just needed my brother to get here. He would take me away from this disaster, just like he always has.
Once Ari made sure I was okay she hightailed it out of the bathroom before the bell rang to let Mrs. Johnson know I was not feeling well. She was planning on telling our science teacher I was having terrible cramps and was in the girl’s bathroom.
She was right in a way…I was in terrible pain but it had nothing to do with cramps. It was my heart breaking and nothing more. Mrs. Johnson would not care. It was the last day for seniors anyway and all we were doing was playing stupid ass games.
I had sent Jefferson a text message right when I walked into the bathroom and locked myself behind the stall, asking if he could come and pick me up early. Ari had seen me running from the auditorium and came after me. I had managed to avoid Ryan by hiding out on the other end of the school for the last few minutes. I was silently hoping he just left school once he could not find me. It was now between classes and I was just praying my phone would chirp with ‘I’m here honey’ and I could just get the hell out of dodge and into the safety of Jefferson’s truck. If I can manage that and not see Ryan, I should be okay.
“Ells…. please let me talk to you. ”
FUCK a duck…. yep… it was true……. . my life will never go like I wish for it to. Holy hell!
“Go away R. . Ryan”. Oh hells bells keep it together Ellie, keep it together. DO NOT cry in front of him!
“Please Ells, I made a terrible mistake. Jessica was saying all this shit about how she heard you telling Ari you had no plans of getting closer to me and how you were going to break up with me before summer…and…well shit! Ellie I just was not thinking straight honey. I’ve been trying to be patient with you Ellie but for fucks sake all we ever do is kiss and well…I just broke. A guy has needs and well um…. She just broke me Ellie with her bullshit and I had a small moment of weakness. I promise you it will never happen again. I promise. I. Will. NEVER betray you again Ellie. I promise you honey. Let’s just forget about this okay? Move on, we can move on right Ellie?”
Oh my god, I think I just threw up in my mouth. A guy has needs? Is he insane! He had a SMALL moment of weakness? You have got to be fucking kidding me! Did he really just say that?
I got the courage from somewhere deep inside and turned to face him.
“You have got to be kidding me right? THAT is your reason for fucking Jessica? Because I was hoping you were going to at least make it worth my while Ryan. ” I managed to spit that all out even with the tears I was holding back and the anger that was growing.
“Make what worth your while? Ellie I will do anything!” Ryan pleaded.
At that moment I summoned all the deep down empowering woman bullshit Ari’s mother is always preaching to us. “Girls, you are stronger than you know…. If you don’t like being treated like a doormat then get the fuck off the floor…. oh and my all time favorite…’If you obey all the rules, you miss all the fun’. That one was a quote by Katharine Hepburn. Ari’s mother adored Katharine Hepburn and I swear she has made us watch every one of her movies.
Yep! Once I had all that empowering shit boiled up in my small 5’5 118 pound body, I balled my fist up and hit that mother fucker as hard as I could in the face. Okay, I am not going to lie and say it did not hurt. It hurt like a son of a bitch and I’m pretty sure I let out a scream of shear pain once I made contact with his jaw but…. to see Ryan’s head snap back and everyone stop and stare. Jesus it was worth it!
Even if I did think I just broke my hand. SHIT!
“For making that worth my while you asshole, SHIT!” I yelled at Ryan. For just one second I felt so good, until I felt my hand start to throb harder.
Ohhh shit……
“Ellie what the hell is going on?!” It was Jefferson. I was pulled out of the daze I was in as I stood there and looked at my ever increasing swollen hand.
“I got your text honey, WHAT is going on?”
Jefferson looked at me then down to my hand and then over to Ryan who was now nursing his jaw and it must have all clicked in that moment. Jefferson had Ryan pinned up against the lockers in two seconds flat.
“What the fuck did you do to my sister you asshole? I will KILL you if you have hurt her!” Jefferson hissed between his teeth.
I walked over and tried to grab Jefferson off Ryan before he hurt him or worse, got in trouble for beating the shit out of a high school student. I forgot about my hand and I lurched back in pain and let out a small gasp when I grabbed at his shirt. Just then I felt warm strong hands on my shoulders and my whole body started to tingle and feel warm inside.
What the hell?!? What was going on?
“Stand back here Ellie so you don’t get hurt sweetheart. ” I looked up and was looking into the most beautiful blue eyes I had ever seen. I had never seen a guy as good looking as the guy who was standing in front of me. He must have been at least 6’2 230 pounds. I know this because Jefferson was 6’ 1 and 220 pounds.
My eyes traveled up and down his body quickly. Holy shit this guy was built! I always thought my brother Jefferson was the most handsome man I’d ever seen. Jefferson had light brown hair and emerald green eyes. He worked out every day for as long as I could reme
mber. He said it was his way to release his stress. We could not go anywhere ever without every girl tripping over herself to get his attention. The thing I love most about my brother is that he is clueless to all of it. Just take my brother to the lake and have him take off his shirt and BAM…girls everywhere. He had a beautiful body and had part of his chest and upper arms covered in ink. He had a Texas flag tattoo on his upper left arm and a tribal tattoo on his right chest and shoulder that went down a little ways onto his back. He and few friends went last summer and got tribal tattoos.
But this guy standing in front of me was breathtaking……. I could not tear my eyes away from him…. .
I heard a small laugh escape from his beautiful mouth and noticed he was still holding onto my shoulders. I snapped out of yet another daze.