“What in the hell is wrong with you?” Will asked as he looked at me with a stunned expression on his face.
Glancing at Will I asked, “What?”
Will pulled his head back and let out a gruff laugh. “The way you came storming in here just now, you look like you’re about to rip someone’s head off.”
I looked around the room before I remembered I stashed a bottle of whiskey behind some books on the bookshelf. I walked over and moved a book out of the way and grabbed the whiskey. I took a drink from it as Will asked, “Where in the hell did you get that from?”
Shaking my head, I took another drink. I needed to forget. I have to forget. I tipped my head back and took another swig.
“Luke, dude, you have to talk to me. I’ve never seen you like this before. What in the hell is going on with you?”
I looked over at my best friend. I could never tell him I was madly in love with his sister. He was pissed at me for kissing her and then breaking her heart. I had told him about Karen almost immediately. He had bugged me for months to talk to Libby, but I couldn’t. I could barely look her in the eyes the first time I came home from school.
I gave him a wink. “Nothing. I just need to release some steam. Too much fucking bullshit in my mind.” I walked up to the window and looked out.
“Want to talk about it?” Will asked as my phone began ringing. I pulled it out and saw Abigail’s name. I had sent her a text on my way back to my dorm.
“Hey, Abigail, are you free?”
“Hell yes, I’m free. It’s about damn time, Johnson. I’m heading up to my bedroom now to get undressed. The door will be unlocked.”
Closing my eyes, I inhaled a deep breath. “I’ll be there in a few minutes.” I hit End and shoved the phone back into my pocket. Turning, I walked back over to the shelf and put the whiskey bottle back. I headed into the bathroom to splash my face with cold water.
“Why the hell are you doing this, Luke?” Will asked.
I poked my head out and looked at him. “Doing what?”
He frowned. “Going to Abigail.” I stepped back into the bathroom and shut off the water. I walked back out and just starred at Will and chuckled. “I’m going to Abigail because I want to get laid. What’s wrong with that?”
Will let out a sigh. “What about Libby?”
I stopped, slowly turned and looked at him. “What about Libby?”
Will looked pissed. He shook his head and glared at me. “Do you have feelings for my sister?”
I swallowed hard as I shook my head and looked away.
“Luke?”
I turned and looked at him. “I can’t. I mean, I won’t do that to her. She means everything to me, and I’ll fuck it up, Will. I already broke her heart with the dick move I made on her when I left for college. What if I can’t … I mean, I don’t think I can … I’m not good enough for her, Will. She deserves someone better, and she found him.”
Will’s eyes widened and he looked shocked. “Wait. What do you mean she found him?”
I let out a frustrated laugh. “I mean she’s dating someone. I saw them, just now. I was going to ask her if she wanted to see a movie and she was leaning against the building of her dorm when some dick fucking kissed her.” Sucking in a deep breath I whispered, “She looked happy.” I turned away from him.
“So because you see Lib kissing a guy, you run to Abigail? Why is okay for you to be with someone, but Libby can’t? Luke, did you honestly think she would wait forever?”
I knew what I was doing was wrong. The way I was acting was not fair to Libby, but if Abigail could make me forget for a bit, then so be it. I needed to forget. I reached down for my truck keys. “I haven’t been with a girl in months. I need to get fucked.”
I went to leave when Will grabbed my arm. “Don’t do this, Luke. If you want to be with someone …” He closed his eyes and took in a deep breath before letting it out. “If you want to be with someone, be with the person you love. Luke, Libby loves you.”
My heart slammed against my chest and my eyes widened in horror. No. No Will is wrong. She can’t love me after all the times I’ve pushed her away. I’ve never given her a reason to love me.
“No … she doesn’t love me, Will.”
Will let out a frustrated moan. “Luke, for Christ sakes, will you just admit you love her? She already …”
Will immediately stopped talking. I looked into his eyes. “She already what?”