I knew the moment I spoke my voice would tremble. Admitting what had been swirling around in my head for months proved to be harder than I thought. It needed to be said, and even though I was scared to death it might push him away, I forced it out.
“I’m a virgin and that scares you. Admit it. I’m not experienced enough for you, so you take up with women who know what they’re doing.”
Jase slowly shook his head. “I want you more than the air I breathe. I’ve woken up countless nights because I can’t get you out of my head. My dreams and thoughts are consumed by you. You make it seem like I’m sleeping around with a million different girls. I’ve made a few mistakes, Taylor, and I’ve done some things I’m ashamed of and the last thing I’d ever want to do is hurt you.”
My mouth parted open to talk, but I quickly lost my words.
“Taylor, I’ve never been so attracted to a woman before like I am you. From the first moment I saw you I knew you were different. That is what scares me. That is why I’m so confused. You have the power to bring me to my knees and destroy my entire world.”
A single tear rolled down my cheek. “I don’t want to destroy your world, Jase. I want to be a part of it. Why won’t you make love to me? Why am I not even worth the chance to try?”
Walking all the way into the room, he shut the door behind him. Cupping my face with his hands, he leaned down and brushed his lips against mine. “Taylor, why aren’t you listening to what I’m saying? Please listen to me when I say I’m the one not good enough for you.”
It was time to speak from my heart. I wanted Jase to be the one to take my virginity. I wanted to look into his eyes as he made love to me. I wanted him more than I wanted anything in my life.
“Make love to me, Jase. Please want me.”
His eyes looked lost for a moment, as if he was battling an internal struggle. “Sweetness, I want you more than anything. Are you sure you want to do this? Once it’s done, there is no taking it back,” he whispered as he gazed into my eyes.
“I’ve never been so sure of anything in my entire life.”
The smile that spread across his face caused me to do the same. “Taylor,” he whispered before pressing his lips to mine. I’d never experienced such a kiss before, and I knew no other man would ever be able to make me feel that way again.
He frowned and his eyes looked so confused. “I don’t want to hurt you, Taylor.”
Taking a step back, I lifted my shirt over my head and tossed it to the floor. “Then go slow,” I spoke in a quiet voice as I stepped out of my shorts and stood before Jase in nothing but a lace push-up bra and matching panties.
My stomach felt as if it was flipping from a thrill ride when Jase licked his lips and let his eyes move over my body. “My God, you’re absolutely perfect. So damn beautiful.”
The way he looked at me did weird things to not only my stomach, but my heart as well. “Are you just going to stand there and look at me?”
Shaking his head, he took a few steps closer and pulled the T-shirt he had on off. Trying not to react to his perfect body, I suppressed the moan I wanted to let out.
He had the most amazing body with abs to die for. Good lord he had that ever-loving V that was plunging into his jeans. “Sweet Jesus,” I mumbled as he smiled and unbuttoned his jeans.
“I want to kiss every inch of your body. Touch you until you beg me for more.”
My eyes snapped up to his as I took a few steps back and hit the bed. “I’ve never . . . I mean . . . I haven’t ever . . .”
Swallowing hard, I watched as he pushed his jeans down and his dick sprung out.
Oh no. He’s huge!
Panic filled my body as I continued to stare at him.
It’s never going to fit.
When his hands touched my arms, I jumped. “Hey. If you’re not ready for this, we don’t have to do anything.”
Slowly shaking my head, I looked up as I clamped down on my lip. “No. It’s just I’ve never seen a man naked before and I need a second to . . . to um . . .”
The thoughtful smile that spread over his face made me blush. “You are so innocent; it makes me want you more.”
Taking a deep breath, I closed my eyes as I felt his hand on my cheek. “Talk to me, sweetness.”
My breath hitched as I looked into his beautiful blue eyes. “I’m scared.”
“Of me?”