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On Monday, Hayley sat perched on her stool once more. When her back ached, she ignored it. When she had to call for a relief clerk so she could waddle to the bathroom, again, she made a joke out of it.
Her bladder felt squeezed down to the size of a pea.
On the way back, she detoured outside, not only to stretch her legs and back but to see Stella.
"Is it okay if I take my break now? I want to hunt down Harper and apologize. " She'd spent all morning dreading the moment, but she couldn't put it off any longer. "He wasn't anywhere to be found on Sunday, but he's probably back in his cave now. "
"Go ahead. Oh, I just ran into Roz. She called that professor. Dr. Carnegie? She has an appointment to see him later this week. Maybe we'll make some progress in that area. "
Then she narrowed her eyes on Hayley's face. "I tell you what, one of us is going with you to your doctor's appointment tomorrow. I don't want you driving anymore. "
"I still fit behind the wheel. " Barely.
"That may be, but either Roz or I will take you. And I'm thinking it's time you go part-time. "
"You might as well put me in the loony bin as take work away from me now. Come on, Stella, a lot of women work right up to the end. Besides, I'm sitting on my butt most all day. Best thing about finding Harper is walking. "
"Walk," Stella agreed. "Don't lift. Anything. "
"Nag, nag, nag. " But she said it with a laugh as she started toward the grafting house.
Outside the greenhouse she paused. She'd practiced what she wanted to say. She thought it best to think it all through. He'd accept her apology. His mama had raised him right, and from what she'd seen he had a good heart. But she wanted, very much, for him to understand she'd just been in some sort of mood.
She opened the door. She loved the smell in here. Experimentation, possibilities. One day, she hoped either Harper or Roz would teach her something about this end of the growing.
She could see him down at the end, huddled over his work. He had his headphones on and was tapping one foot to whatever beat played in hi
s ears.
God, he was so cute. If she'd met him in the bookstore, before her life had changed, she'd have hit on him, or worked it around so he'd hit on her. All that dark, messed-up hair, the clean line of jaw, the dreamy eyes. And those artistic hands.
She'd bet he had half a dozen girls dangling on a string, and another half dozen waiting in line for a chance.
She started down toward him and was surprised enough to pull up short when his head snapped up, and he swung around to her.
"Christ on a crutch, Harper! I thought I was going to startle you. "
"What? What?" His eyes were dazzled as he dragged off his headset. "What?"
"I didn't think you could hear me. "
"I - " He hadn't. He'd smelled her. "Do you need something?"
"I guess I do. I need to say I'm sorry for jumping down your throat every time you opened your mouth the last couple of weeks. I've been an awful bitch. "
"No. Well, yeah. It's okay. "
She laughed and edged closer to try to see what he was doing. It justlooked like he had a bunch of stems tied together. "I guess I had the jumps. What am I going to do, how am I going to do it? Why do I have to feel so fat and ugly all the time?"
"You're not fat. You could never be ugly. "
'That's awful nice of you. But being pregnant doesn't affect my eyesight, and I know what I see in the mirror every damn day. "
"Then you know you're beautiful. "
Her eyes sparkled when she smiled. "I must've been a pitiful case if you're obliged to flirt with a pregnant woman who's got a bad disposition. "