Walt sat next to me. “Don’t give up. There has to be a way.”
“Does there?” I asked, feeling especially resentful. “Like there has to be a cure for you? What if there isn’t? What if…”
My voice broke. Walt turned his face so it was hidden in shadow.
“I’m sorry,” I said. “That was terrible. But I just couldn’t stand it if…”
I was so confused, I didn’t know what to say, or how I felt. All I knew was that I didn’t want to lose Walt.
“Did you mean it?” I asked. “When you said you wanted to spend time…you know.”
Walt shrugged. “Isn’t it obvious?”
I didn’t answer, but, please—nothing is obvious with boys. For such simple creatures, they are quite baffling.
I imagined I was blushing fiercely, so I decided to change the subject.
“Claude said he sensed the spirit of Anubis about you. You’ve been talking to Anubis a lot?”
Walt turned his rings. “I thought maybe he could help me. Maybe grant me a little extra time before…before the end. I wanted to be around long enough to
help you defeat Apophis. Then I’d feel like I did something with my life. And…there were other reasons I wanted to talk to him. About some—some powers I’ve been developing.”
“What sort of powers?”
It was Walt’s turn to change the subject. He looked at his hands like they’d become dangerous weapons. “The thing is, I almost didn’t come to Brooklyn. When I got the djed amulet —that calling card you guys sent—my mom didn’t want me to leave. She knew that learning magic would make the curse accelerate. Part of me was afraid to go. Part of me was angry. It seemed like a cruel joke. You guys offered to train me for magic when I knew I wouldn’t survive longer than a year or two.”
“A year or two?” I could hardly breathe. I’d always thought of a year as an incredibly long time. I’d waited forever to turn thirteen. And each school term seemed like an eternity. But suddenly two years seemed much too short. I’d only be fifteen, not even driving yet. I couldn’t imagine what it would be like to know that I would die in two years—possibly sooner, if I continued doing what I was born to do, practicing magic. “Why did you come to Brooklyn, then?”
“I had to,” Walt said. “I’ve lived my whole life under the threat of death. My mom made everything so serious, so huge. But when I got to Brooklyn, I felt like I had a destiny, a purpose. Even if it made the curse more painful, it was worth it.”
“But it’s so bloody unfair.”
Walt looked at me, and I realized he was smiling. “That’s my line. I’ve been saying that for years. Sadie, I want to be here. The past two months I’ve felt like I’m actually living for the first time. And getting to know you…” He cleared his throat. He was quite attractive when he got nervous. “I started worrying about small things. My hair. My clothes. Whether I brushed my teeth. I mean, I’m dying, and I’m worrying about my teeth.”
“You have lovely teeth.”
He laughed. “That’s what I mean. A little comment like that, and I feel better. All these small things suddenly seem important. I don’t feel like I’m dying. I feel happy.”
Personally, I felt miserable. For months I’d dreamed about Walt admitting he liked me, but not like this—not like, I can be honest with you, because I’m dying anyway.
Something he’d said was nagging at me, too. It reminded me of a lesson I’d taught at Brooklyn House, and an idea began to form in my mind.
“‘Small things suddenly seem important,’” I repeated. I looked down at a little mound of rubble we’d cleared from the blocked doorway. “Oh, it couldn’t be that easy.”
“What?” asked Walt.
“Rocks.”
“I just bared my soul, and you’re thinking about rocks?”
“The doorway,” I said. “Sympathetic magic. Do you think…”
He blinked. “Sadie Kane, you’re a genius.”
“Well I know that. But can we make it work?”
Walt and I began gathering up more pebbles. We chipped some pieces from the larger boulders and added them to our pile. We tried our best to make a miniature replica of the rubble collection blocking the doorway.