“I told you I had a case.”
“In a bar?” she said, and he turned his back to her, taking a couple of mugs down from the cabinet. He’d been too wound up last night to come straight home. Leo had suggested they get a drink, talk about the case, and Michael had taken him up on the offer, using the excuse to toss back a couple of bourbons and take the edge off what he’d seen.
“Eleven…” Tim counted. “Twelve…”
Gina said, “You smell like an ashtray.”
“I didn’t smoke.”
“I didn’t say you did.” She dropped a handful of Cheerios into the box and held out her hand for more.
“Fourteen,” Tim continued.
“I just needed some time.” Michael poured coffee into the mugs. “Leo wanted to talk about the case.”
“Leo wanted an excuse to get shitfaced.”
“Uh-oh,” Tim sang.
“Sorry, baby,” Gina apologized to their son. She softened her tone. “You skipped a number. What happened to thirteen?”
Tim shrugged. For the moment, he could only count to twenty-eight, but Gina made sure he hit every number along the way.
Gina told Tim, “Go get dressed for Ba-Ba. She’ll be here soon.”
Tim stood and bounced out of the room, skipping from one foot to the other.
Gina dropped the Cheerios into the box and sat down with a groan. She had pulled a double shift this weekend to pick up some extra money. The day hadn’t even started and already she looked exhausted.
“Busy night?” he asked.
She took a sip of coffee, looking at him over the steam rising from the mug. “I need money for the new therapist.”
Michael sighed, leaning against the counter. Tim’s old speech therapist had taken him as far as she could. The kid needed a specialist, and the good specialists weren’t on the state health insurance plan.
“Five hundred dollars,” Gina said. “That’ll get him through the end of the month.”
“Christ.” Michael rubbed his fingers into his eyes, feeling a headache coming on. He thought about the BMW and the Lincoln he’d seen at Grady Homes last night. Tim could see fifty specialists for that kind of money.
“Take it out of savings,” he said.
She snorted a laugh. “What savings?”
Christmas. They had raided their savings for Christmas.
“I’m gonna ask for another shift at the hospital.” She held up her hand to stop his protest. “He’s got to have the best.”
“He’s got to have his mother.”
“How about your mother?” she shot back.
Michael’s jaw set. “I’m not going to ask her for another dime.”
She put down the mug on the table with a thump that spilled coffee onto the back of her hand. There was no way to win this argument—Michael should know, they’d had it practically every week over the last five years. He was already working overtime, trying to bring in extra cash so Tim could have the things he needed. Gina took weekend shifts twice a month, but Michael drew the line at her working holidays. He barely saw her as it was. Sometimes, he thought she planned it that way. They weren’t a married couple anymore; they were a partnership, a nonprofit corporation working for the betterment of Tim. Michael couldn’t even remember the last time they’d had sex.
“Cynthia called last night,” Gina told him. Their spoiled next-door neighbor. “She’s got a loose board or something.”
“Loose board?” he repeated. “Where’s Phil?”
She pressed her palms to the table and stood. “Botswana. Hell, I don’t know, Michael. She just asked if you could fix it and I said yes.”
“Did you want to consult with me about that first?”
“Do it or don’t,” she snapped, tossing the rest of her coffee into the sink. “I need to get dressed for work.”
He watched her back as she made her way down the hall. Every morning was like this: Tim making a mess, them cleaning it up, then some argument about something stupid breaking out. To top things off, Barbara would be here soon, and Michael was sure his mother-in-law would find something to complain about, whether it was her aching back, her paltry social security check, or the fact that he’d given her a retarded grandson. Lately, she had taken to leaving articles on Gulf War Syndrome taped to the refrigerator, the obvious inference being that Michael had done something horrible over in Iraq that had brought this scourge on her family.
Michael went into the bedroom and dressed quickly, skipping his shower so he wouldn’t have to go into the bathroom and deal with Gina again. He saw Barbara’s Toyota pulling into the driveway and grabbed his hammer out of his toolbox, sneaking out the back door as she came in the front.
Part of the chain-link fence around the backyard had been taken out by a tree during the last ice storm and there hadn’t been any money to fix it. He hopped over the broken section, careful not to catch the cuff of his pants on the twisted metal and fall flat on his face. Again.
He knocked at the back door, glancing through the window as he waited for Cynthia to come. She took her sweet time, padding up the hall in a short, babydoll robe that was opened to reveal the camisole and thong she wore underneath. Everything was white, practically see-through. Michael wondered where Phil was. If Gina ever answered the door for Phil dressed this way, Michael would have fucking killed her.
Cynthia slowly worked the locks, bending at the waist, flashing some breast. Her long blonde hair covered her face. The camisole was so low he could see the tips of her pink nipples.
Michael hefted the hammer in his hand, feeling an electric buzz in his head. He should just turn around right now and let her fix her own board. Shit, Phil had to come home sometime; let him do it.
Cynthia flashed him a smile as she opened the door. “Howdy, neighbor.”
“Where’s Phil?”
“Indianapolis,” she said, cupping her hands around her mouth to hide a yawn. “Selling support hose to the masses so he can keep me in the style to which I’ve become accustomed.”
“Right.” He glanced over her shoulder. The kitchen was a pigsty. Crusty plates were stacked in the sink, take-out pizza boxes everywhere, cigarettes flowing out of ashtrays. He saw mold growing on a glass of what looked like orange juice.
He said, “Gina told me you have a loose board.”
She smiled like a cat. “It needs tightening.”
Michael put down the hammer. “Why did you call her?”
“Neighbors help neighbors,” she said, like it was simple. “You told Phil you’d look after me when he was away.”
Phil hadn’t meant like this.
She pulled him inside the house by his shirt collar. “You look so tense.”
“I can’t keep doing this.”
“What are you doing?” she asked, pulling him closer.
He thought of Gina, the way she never looked at him anymore, how it felt when she pushed him away. “I just can’t.”
Her hand pressed hard against the front of his pants. “Feels like you can.”
Michael held his breath, his eyes following the slope of her small breasts to her firm nipples. He felt his tongue slip out between his lips, could almost feel what it would be like to put his mouth on her.