“And since that’s not gonna goddamn happen, especially now, you can butt right the fuck,” I leaned his way, “out.”
“Kathryn,” he growled, a stern set to his angled jaw.
No.
Hell no.
He was not gonna Dom me without earning the goddamned privilege.
“Don’t you even,” I hissed.
“I cannot believe you’re fuckin’ pissed…at me,” it was him who swept his arm out to indicate what was on my hutch, “when your brother’s ex is fucking you over…” and then he leaned my way, “huge.”
“Don’t you have a girlfriend you can stalk, Boone?” I asked snidely.
“Just sayin’, I’m not interested in her right now because she doesn’t need a serious-as-fuck spanking, sweetheart.”
My breath whistled between my teeth, I sucked so much of it in so fast.
This was because I was ticked at Boone, furious with Angelica, and incensed that his words caused my nipples to get hard and a surge of wet to saturate between my legs.
And I didn’t need what happened next.
Boone proving what I’d spent countless hours wondering about since the first moment I clapped eyes on him knowing Lottie picked him for me.
That he was an intuitive Master.
I knew this when he didn’t miss my reaction.
At least not the part that served his purpose.
Which meant he got closer, not super close, but close enough I could smell the residue of his shave cream.
Oh God.
Yeah, an intuitive Master.
And a skilled one.
“Should start small, tell you to open your mouth for me,” he whispered. “Slide my fingers inside, let you taste who you belong to.”
I stood still and stared into eyes that had lost almost all the green, they were so dilated.
He was turned on.
Fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck.
“But right now, I’d rather see you on your knees,” he finished.
The words were trembling when I said, “Get out.”
He ignored me. “Though you’d rather be across mine.”
He was regrettably very right.
I fought back a shiver.
He dipped his face to mine.
And tore me apart.
“Your brother needs a fuckin’ program. His ex needs the verbal shit kicked out of her. But you’re so addicted to their dysfunction, set to be the enabler, you won’t do dick. Not to help guide them to a path that’s healthy for them, not to extricate yourself from a situation that is not healthy for you. You’re one of those chicks who likes chaos. Drama. Needs to be needed even if it’s dicked up how you gotta get your fix.”
His words felt like ice water fell from my ceiling, drenching me, chilling me to the bone.
“You know what’s good for them,” he continued, “but you won’t do dick about it. You know what’s good for you, and you won’t reach out and fuckin’ grab it.”
“Go fuck yourself, Boone.”
“Think I’ve made it abundantly clear, I’d rather fuck you.”
“That’s not gonna happen in twelve lifetimes.”
“Yeah, because you’re so hot to get off on the bullshit, you won’t grab hold of what’s good for you.”
“A macho asshole who thinks his shit doesn’t stink and stalks me and comes on to me when he’s got another woman in his bed?”
“We’re not exclusive.”
Seriously?
“Well, aren’t you proving with all of this you’re a keeper?”
His gaze moved over my face, down my body and back up. “Christ, you want it so bad, you’re tearing yourself apart.”
Of a sort, he was not wrong.
I was holding myself so still, if I moved an inch, it felt like my body would shatter.
“You’ve no idea what I want, Boone.”
“One thing I know, whenever I spend time in your space, what I want becomes less and less you.”
With that supremely successful comeback, he prowled out of my apartment.
I ignored the nagging sensation that, even with that scene, the loss of his presence felt like a physical blow, something I felt from the first time we met.
Instead of thinking on that, I looked down at the photos on the hutch.
When I could trust myself to move, I separated them and took all they displayed in.
I didn’t mind stripping. I’d embraced my sexuality a long time ago. Not to mention, I made buckets at Smithie’s, even if, at first, I’d done it as a means to an end for my real estate dream.
And one thing my dad taught me, giving a shit what people thought about you was for the birds. I’d wanted his love, I’d wanted his attention, and I’d learned early wanting either of those things was straight-up stupid, because neither were worth shit.
That said, my desired life trajectory had never included slithering oiled-up in nothing but a G-string on a reflective stage for horny assholes.
I’d left a hundred dollars for Angelica that day, raced to her house to take care of the kids, and she was getting a facial.
In the beginning, I got it. Brian’s descent was dramatic. Good Time Brian became Drunken Buffoon Brian so fast, it was terrifying.
So she’d kicked his ass out.
Portia had been two, Jethro one, Brian and Angelica had started early, moving in with each other right out of high school, whereupon Angelica got pregnant in a blink.