“Very funny, Queenie.” But then he really looks at me and his mouth almost drops open, “Look at you. Did you come down here looking for more than just our deal?”
“Nope. You said you might want to touch, I have no problem as long as you touch only this,” I say and move my hand around my Xerxei person. “As soon as I Shift back to Liv, it’s hands off. Got it. And make it quick, the longer I am like this, my Vampire ties will be disintegrating, and they will know.” I don’t ask, I demand, and he just nods. “I trust you aren’t expecting any visitors?” I venture, meaning our sire and he shakes his head, apparently speechless.
“Fine. Sit.” I order him to the sofa, and he does as bid. I climb onto his lap. His hands are then all over me, sending sparks all over as I run my hands into his short blonde hair. “Lean back,” he whispers, and I do. He takes my nipple in his mouth through the lace and swipes his tongue over it. It’s like an electric charge goes through me as he runs his hands up my thighs. “Oh, Liv,” he whispers as he feels it too. “Look at me,” he says.
I look into his bright green eyes and his gaze bores into mine. I feel completely taken over with desire for him as he murmurs to me. I kiss him abruptly, cutting off what he
was saying to me and he pulls me to him briefly before he pushes me away, shaking his head. “No. Not like this,” I hear him say to himself but forget it as he just kisses me. He pushes my own hand to where he wants it and I start to move my fingers over me. He bites down on me, slowly drawing out my blood as I slowly bring myself to a climax. He groans and pulls back. “Shift,” he says, and I do, wondering what the change in attitude is with him. He pulls himself out and starts to stroke himself as I kiss him. He hesitantly kisses me back and then says, “Now,” and I bite down on him as he comes. As soon as I pull back from the bite, he takes my chin in his hand and mutters to me again, words I don’t follow and then he kisses me.
“You should go,” he says, pushing me gently away from him.
“This arrangement not working for you anymore?” I ask a bit worried because without something to offer him, he has no reason to keep my secret about Xane and our bond.
“No, it is. Too much. I want you all the time and properly,” he says sadly. “I need to pull back a bit or I am going to lose control.”
I nod. “We’ll go at your pace, and next time I’ll come dressed as a nun,” I joke, but he looks at me with a pained expression.
“Liv, I am being serious. You need to go now.”
Realizing that he is being completely serious, I say, “Sure.” But this time I go. I Astral back to my bedroom and feel very tired suddenly. I have time for a quick nap, so I climb into bed and I fall asleep before my head hits the pillow.
“So, you fucked her this time?” CK asks with just the barest hint of resentment.
“No,” Sebastian says. “I couldn’t.”
They are talking in Sebastian’s suite and I am seeing and overhearing this conversation but from where, I am not sure.
“Couldn’t?” CK scoffs. “Oh, Sebastian!” he snaps.
Sebastian sighs. “It’s not what you are thinking.”
“So, you aren’t falling in love with her? I am not an idiot, my boy. I can see the signs.”
“Well, could you blame me?” Sebastian snarls at him. “Everything you see in her, don’t you think I see it too? Isn’t that why you kept her from me all these centuries? She is so Powerful but has this vulnerable side that I just want to protect.”
CK is not looking very happy about that. “Protect? So, you are in love with her.”
“Maybe,” he says mutinously. “You don’t understand. When I touch her…it’s like it was meant to be…” he trails off at CK’s murderous look. “Oh, don’t look at me like that. This was all your idea.”
“And now you are suffering,” CK says. “I’m sorry, ‘Bastian. I am trying with the book, to see if there is a way to reverse what I did to you, so you can be free. It is taking time. I don’t know what else to say.”
Reverse? That’s why he wanted the book? He thinks there is a way to reverse turning?
“There is nothing to say. I don’t want to be saved. She knows my secret, but I can’t act on it in the way I want to because she won’t. And I won’t take her by force. Not again.”
“We have spoken of this,” he says casually, turning away.
“What do you mean?” Sebastian jumps up.
“She knows of your desires. Not towards her, but in general.”
“How?”
“I mentioned it, in passing.”
“In passing?”
“We were talking about something else and it came up,” he says, avoiding Sebastian’s glare. “That is irrelevant. The point is, she asked why we didn’t just find someone we trust to fulfill your needs.”