“I can’t feel it!”
The Bic pen appeared in Payne’s hand from out of nowhere—except, no, it wasn’t magical. . . . The thing was Jane’s, the one she kept in the side pocket of her white coat. The instant she saw it, all the furious flapping morphed into a surreal slow-mo as Payne’s hand lifted up.
Her stabbing swipe was so strong and sure that there was no stopping it.
The sharp point pierced through the female’s heart, dead on, and her torso jerked upward, a death gasp shooting in through her open mouth.
Jane screamed, “Noooooo—”
“Jane—wake up!”
The sound of Vishous’s voice made no sense. Except then she opened her eyes . . . to complete darkness. The clinic and the blood and Payne’s hoarse breathing were replaced by a black visual shroud that—
Candles flared to life, and the first thing she saw properly was Vishous’s hard face. He was right beside her, even though they hadn’t gone to bed at the same time.
“Jane, it was only a dream. . . .”
“I’m okay,” she blurted, shoving her hair out of her face. “I’m . . .”
While she propped herself up on her arms and panted, she wasn’t sure what was dream and what was real. Especially given that Vishous was next to her. Not only had they not been going to bed together; they hadn’t been waking up together either. She assumed he was sleeping down in his forge, but maybe that hadn’t been the case.
She hoped it hadn’t.
“Jane . . .”
In the dim quiet, she heard in the word all the sadness that V never would have let out in any other situation. And she felt the same way. The days without them talking much, the stress of Payne’s recovery, the distance . . . the goddamn distance . . . it was so damned sad.
Here in the candlelight, in their mated bed, though, all that faded some.
With a sigh, she turned into his warm, heavy body and the contact changed her: Without having to turn herself solid, she became corporeal, the heat flowing between them and magnifying and making her as real as he was. Looking up, she stared at his fierce, beautiful face with its tattoo at the temple and the black hair that he always shoved back and the slashing eyebrows and those icy pale eyes.
Over the past week, she’d played and replayed that night when things had gotten so rough. And though a lot of it was disappointing and anxious-making, there was one thing that just didn’t make sense.
When they’d met up in the tunnel, Vishous had been wearing a turtleneck. And he never wore turtlenecks. He hated them because he found them confining—which was ironic, given what sometimes got him off. Typically, he wore muscle shirts or went naked, and she wasn’t stupid. He might be a hard-core hard-ass, but his skin bruised as easily as anyone else’s did.
He’d said he’d gotten into a fight, but he was a master at hand-to-hand combat. So if he was pulling a head-to-toe black-and-blue it happened for only one reason: because he allowed it.
And she had to wonder who had done it to him.
“You all right?” V asked.
She reached up and put her palm on his cheek. “Are you?” Were they?
He didn’t blink. “What was the dream about?”
“We’re going to have to talk about things, V.”
His lips thinned out. And got even tighter as she waited. Finally, he said, “Payne is where she is. It’s only been a week and—”
“Not about her. About what happened that night you were out alone.”
Now he eased back, sinking into the pillows and linking his two hands over his tight abs. In the dim light, the tight bands of muscle and ropes of vein that ran up his neck threw sharp shadows.
“You accusing me of being with someone else? I thought we went through this.”
“Stop deflecting.” She stared at him steadily. “And if you want to pick a fight, go find some lessers.”
In any other male, her hitting back like that might have guaranteed a flat-out argument, with all the attendant dramatics.