He turned the water off and opened the glass door. Without reaching for a towel, he stepped right up to her, butt ass naked.
“Do you really think this is what I want? What I think?”
“I promised myself I wouldn’t give in to you. You were mean, hurtful, and now you’re like some completely different guy. You swoop in and give me so much stuff. You’re surrounding me, and I can’t keep fighting.”
“Then don’t. I’m not that guy!” He yelled the words at her. “I’m not the same guy who called you fat, cow, chubby, whatever. When are you going to see that I’m changed? I’m Kurt Michaels. I’m not after anything but your happiness. After ten years I’m here, waiting for you.”
“I don’t know what to do.”
Tears were streaming down her cheeks, and he hated the fact he’d been the one to put them there. The last thing he ever wanted to do was make her cry. He loved her. She needed to see that he wasn’t the same guy. She had to open her heart to him, and her mind.
“This is on you, Kim.” He opened his arms wide. “No games, no teasing. This is total honesty for you. I’m open to you right now. I’m not going anywhere. What do you want? Trust in me.”
He didn’t know what else to say to make her believe. This was just the two of them.
She stepped up close to him, and he watched in awe as she removed her shirt, then used it to wipe away her tears.
Kurt saw her visibly shaking.
“I want to take a chance on you.”
Wrapping his arms around her, he pulled her close, lifted her up, and carried her back into his bedroom. Placing her on the bed, he laid her down and stared into her eyes.
“Are you going to?”
“Not right now, no.”
“Why?”
“You’re shaking. I don’t get my rocks off with women who are scared.”
“I’m giving myself to you.”
“I know. It’s what I always wanted.”
“Then why are you holding back?” she asked.
“I’m showing you that I care about you. This isn’t about you. This is about us.”
Chapter Five
The following day, Kim woke up in Kurt’s bed, still a virgin. Yesterday had been entirely surreal. She was alone in bed. After getting naked for him, they’d lain down, and stared at each other. Then she’d gone to fix them both some dinner. Together they watched a movie, and at night, she had gone to sleep in his bed.
“Ah, you’re awake,” Kurt said, coming in with a tray.
“Did you make some breakfast?”
“I didn’t cook, no. I poured cereal into a bowl, placed a jug of milk, and chopped up some fruit.”
She sat up in bed and tucked her hair behind her ears. He placed the tray on her knees, before taking his place beside her.
“I think we should talk.”
“I thought we’d talk yesterday.”
“You were shaking. I couldn’t talk with you being afraid.”
“I wasn’t afraid.”
He didn’t look convinced.
“I was nervous. I’m not afraid of you.”
“Shaking like that, I don’t want you to ever feel that again.” He took a banana, peeled back the skin, and started to eat.
She poured some milk into her cereal, took a spoon, and started to eat. “I meant what I said.”
“About?”
“Wanting to be with you. Sex.”
“Ah, sexland.”
“Don’t tease.”
He shrugged. “I told you I’m not going to judge you. This has to be what you really want.”
Kim licked her lips. “I do want it. I want to be with you. Have sex.”
Kurt stared at her. “Can you believe we’re trying to have this conversation right now?”
She smiled. “No. I promised myself I wouldn’t fall for you.”
“I was a bastard.” He shook his head. “I’ll always regret what I did and said to you.”
“You didn’t really do anything. You only said hurtful stuff.”
“It still stuck with you though. So, we’re going to take this slow. Every time I come near you, you’re not going to flinch away.”
Kim leaned over and pressed her lips against his. “You’re being awfully patient with me.”
“I’m a good guy. It’s my thing now.”
She chuckled.
“So, I had this boutique send you over a couple of dresses to wear for this charity gala event. It’s going to be a big deal, so shirts covered in paint aren’t going to cut it.”
“We could both go like that. Be rebels.”
“As much as I’d love to see your ass, it’s not a good impression to make for a first event. Maybe in the future.”
“Deal,” she said. “I’d love to see their faces if you walked in without the suit, looking like a penguin.”
“Please, I’m the best looking penguin there is. I’d be the alpha of the pack.”
“I think that’s wolves.”
“I’m a wolf.”
“More like a baby cub.”
He laughed, kissing her back. “Enjoy your breakfast. I’ve got to make a few calls.”
Like that, he was gone again, leaving her confused. Kurt hadn’t just taken her, and laughed it off. He was a changed man, and Kim found herself enjoying him.