She gasps loudly and claps her hands to her mouth. “I… I didn’t mean for you to see it…”
“Who does the baby belong to, Lexi? I think I should know if he or she is mine…”
“What? Why would you think that?” she gushes. “Do you really think I’m that sort of person?”
“I… no, I just…” Shit, now I feel even more stupid! “I just don’t know why you wouldn’t tell me.”
“Because it’s only been a short while. Because we’re from different worlds and this highlighted that. Because me and you can’t be together, can we? Because…” She shrugs hard. “I don’t know. This is all weird.”
“Oh God… so the baby is mine?” Those words swim through me. It’s crazy to process, to know for real. “Really mine? This is wild. I’m going to be a father… I really am.”
“You don’t have to be,” she insists. “I don’t expect anything from you. I’m not going to be coming to you for money or support, anything like that. I’m just… I don’t know. I’m telling you because, you know.”
It’s time. It’s finally time to confess. “Lexi, I love you. I do. I love you and I want to be a father to our child. I want to be there for you too. In whatever way that you want me. I don’t understand what you said about us not being able to be together, I can’t see any barriers between me and you being in love, but if that isn’t what you want then I understand. But please, let me be there for you. Let me help you.”
“You… you love me?” she gushes. “Is that for real or are you just saying that?”
My face breaks out into a wide smile. Love rushes over me intensely in a warm wave. “Of course I mean it. I wouldn’t say it if I didn’t. I would love nothing more than to be a family with you, but a family doesn’t have to mean relationship if that’s not where this is headed. Whatever you want.”
I clench my fists tightly, desperately hoping this won’t end badly. I just want her to let me in, just a little bit. I want to be in her life and my baby’s life as well. I just hope that she wants that too…
Chapter Twenty-Nine
Lexi
I’m stunned. I don’t know what to say, this is so wonderful. Isaac is reacting in a much better way than I ever could have hoped. I thought he would run for the hills, desperate to get away from me and the commitment, but he’s still here, looking happy. He wants to be there for me and the baby, even if I don’t want him.
“Of course I want you,” I pant back. “I’m just scared that everyone will push us apart.,”
“You mean my father?” He rolls his eyes. “Don’t give a shit about my father. I don’t.”
“But your job and everything… you can’t lose that over me.”
“I already have plans to move on, to create my own business, you know that…”
I don’t know what to say. I do know he wants that, but I don’t know how he’ll do it without his father’s support. But I suppose that isn’t really something for me to have an opinion on.
“Look, Lexi, I love you. I love you with all my heart…”
“I love you too…” Wow, saying those words at last is like lifting a weight off my chest. “So much.”
I giggle, a new intense happiness floods through me. I practically fall against him, the man of my dreams. The person who I love more than anything, is still here with me, loving me like crazy. He holds me tight and smiles down at me with his eyes shining. This has to be a dream, it’s too damn perfect. I don’t know how I managed to get so lucky. This pregnancy was a bit of a disaster at first, but now it feels amazing.
“So, we’re going to be together now?” Isaac asks me with a chuckle. “Properly?”
“Yeah baby, we’re going to be together now. Me and you against the world!”
It is going to be that way, more than I think Isaac realizes that but if he’s willing to face it then so be it. I will be better by his side. I suppose this way, now that he knows, I can return to work and everything will be the same. Or not quite the same, I’m sure I will have to face a lot of gossip, but I hardly care about that. With everything that I have been through recently, that’s the least of my worries.
Jane and Isaac back in my life… who would have thought it?
I lean up onto my tiptoes and press my lips to his. My arms circle his neck and he grips my waist. As we kiss, I can feel the intense passion and love swimming through us, surrounding us, bubbling up and blocking the rest of the world out. I love it like this, when it’s just me and Isaac for a while.
“You really are amazing, you know that?” he murmurs against my lips. “And now you’re the mother of my child. I can’t believe it. I must be the luckiest son of a bitch ever.”
Those words ignite a deep flame inside of me, the love transforms into something else. A fiery need for him. It’s been a while now and to be honest, I didn’t know that we would be here again. So, I take his hand and I drag him over to the couch where I push him to sit down. An intense lusty burst of glee races through me. The way that Isaac is looking at me is too much. I’m consumed by this animalistic need.
I swing a leg over him and straddle him, clinging to his neck as I kiss him once more. Our tongues massage one another and the groans flying out of our mouths show just how turned on we both are. As my buzzing core grinds over his throbbing erection, I feel like a seductive sexual goddess, like I’m utterly perfect.