“We both know I can’t.” he nabs his shirt off the floor, but I stop him from putting it back on. I straddle his thighs. James wraps an arm around my back, and I cup his face between my hands, rubbing his beard.
“I don’t care that you’re married. You were meant to be with me. I know it, and you feel it, don’t you?” I press his palm to my heart over my bare breast. “It can be our secret. Just you and me. No one else. We can make it work. I’ll be with you any way I can be.”
I roll my hips and kiss his lips softly.
“Wouldn’t be fair. Wouldn’t be right.”
“You’re an outlaw. Since when do you care about doing the right thing? Do you love her?”
I hold his gaze refusing to back down from my question.
“Not talking about this with you.”
“I can handle the truth. I may be young, but I’m a good listener.”
“Last thing I wanna do is talk about my marital problems.”
“Then. What. Do. You. Want. To. Do.”
“Bury myself so deep inside you I disappear.” He holds me tighter.
“I wish we could stay like this right here forever.” I breathe him in and hate that I can smell his wife on him. Doing my best to block it out, I cradle my arms around his neck, pressing my breasts against his chest. “Stay with me. For the night.”
His hands rest on my wrists. “I’m no good for you.”
“I can’t unlove you and I don’t want to. You’ll never belong to me in the way that I belong to you. It kills me. But I’d rather take what pieces I can and hold on tight for as long as you’ll let me.”
“Don’t you want better, Lex. Better than this. Better than me.”
“How could there ever be better for me than you? No one has ever made me feel the way I do when you look at me. When you touch me, I think I could die because you showed me what true love is. You’ll say I’m young and don’t know what love is, but I know what hate is. I’ve seen ugly. I’ve tasted it. You killed for me. If that isn’t love, then what is? Who else would go that far for me? No one.”
“I’m no hero. Far from a saint.” Running his hand through my hair he smiles. “You’ve changed. Been forced to grow up a lot faster than you should’ve. You’re going to be just fine without me.” Hand sliding down my back, his fingers trace the ridges of my spine. “I’ve gotta let you go. I can’t keep you, babe. I’ve made a lot of mistakes, but you aren’t one of them.”
I rock against him as our lips meet. James kisses me slow and methodical. He does this switch move, flipping me to my back. He gazes down at me, and I swear I can see his soul blazing behind his eyes. Burning for me. I’ll never forget this moment. I’ve committed the memory to my heart. The flames of his kisses dance across my skin. Dragging my shorts down my legs, he continues to taste every inch of my skin along the way until he meets my pelvic bone.
Heart thumping out of my chest I anticipate his next move.
He buries his head between my legs and shows me just h
ow much he adores me with his fingers and tongue.
Teeth sinking into my lip, I bite it to keep from crying out. No one can know about us. They wouldn’t understand that he took the broken fragments holding me together, filled the gaps, and made me whole. Head thrown back on the bed I close my eyes as every stroke of his tongue is killing me slowly. I’ve never been more turned on.
The man doesn’t stop till my knees shakes and my stomach drops as though I’ve just gone down the big dip on a roller coaster.
“Look at me, Lex.”
I go up on my elbows.
“Can’t make you no promises. Can’t give you a damn thing but this. Understand?”
I nod. “You’re not mine. I know that. But it doesn’t mean I can’t be yours.” He snakes up my body and looms over me with intimidation masked over his features. “Shh.” I press my finger to his mouth. “Don’t argue. If this is goodbye let’s make it count. Make love to me.”
His forehead drops to mine, and I’m afraid he’s going to leave. I grab him between the legs, he’s hard as steel.
“I need you.”
A groan leaves his lips. “I fucked my wife before I came here tonight.”