That name.
It wasn’t a guest’s name.
Something about it tugged me, called to me, whispered that it was the most important name in the world.
“Sto...p.” The kicking grew softer. Their fight fading...
Gemma!
My eyes shot wide.
It took a split second for everything to pour through me. Her arrival, her imprisonment, her kissing me, wanting me, talking to me. Her kindness, and her perfect, perfect heart.
“Fuck!” I ripped my hands off her.
She slipped under the water.
I snatched her back, wading to the shore, oblivious that my broken arm blared with fresh agony or that my legs struggled to stay upright with the vertigo in my mind and the river pushing with its currents.
All I focused on was getting Gemma, getting my friend, to safety.
It took all my strength to climb from the weightlessness of the water and back onto dry land, hoisting her body until she lay like a dead bride in my arms. “Come on. You’re okay. Open your eyes. Please, for God’s sake, open your eyes.” I kneeled next to my clothes, laying her gently in the grass, placing my hands over her heart to do CPR.
I pressed my mouth to hers, exhaling hard into her lungs, bracing with power to compress her chest.
She coughed.
She convulsed upright.
I helped turn her onto her side as she spewed up river water. Nasty red marks lined her throat, yet another collar of goddamn bruises left behind by my fingers. Spluttering, she pushed me away, her hands shaking and lips blue from shock.
It went against every instinct, but I let her go. I moved back. I gave her space.
Slowly, her coughing subsided, giving her enough strength to sit up and wrap her arms around her knees. She did her best to hide between her legs, revealing her lower body was naked, her skirt and boots still somewhere in the river. I supposed, just like she couldn’t wear leggings with the cuff, she couldn’t put underwear on either.
I didn’t know why that killed me, but it did.
Such a simple piece of fabric protection. Yet another piece of her modesty and sanity that I’d stolen.
Fuck.
I ran a hand through my dripping hair, crushed beneath the ever-growing boulder in my heart. I hadn’t seen her this bare since that night in the storm. I wanted to see more. I hated that it made me both sick with desire and distraught with regret.
She had bruises down her arms from whatever tasks she’d completed while nursing me back to health. She had scrapes on her legs and shadows on her chest from things she wouldn’t share with me, yet the worst thing? Her body was different from when she first found my valley, and I stole her.
The power that’d attracted me to her. The raw strength in honed muscles she’d crafted from years of discipline and climbing had faded.
She’d lost weight.
Lost enough to see the outline of her ribs as she heaved for breath and watched me with terrified eyes. Enough to turn her already flat stomach concave as she hugged herself and fought the urge to rock with panic.
Yet another mark I’d put on her. Another flaw of her captivity. I’d laid my hands on her and caused her pain, yet even on the days I kept my distance, I caused her untold misery.
I wasn’t feeding her enough. I wasn’t giving her the sustenance she needed to survive.
I was used to living on nothing. My body was lean and capable of existing on the low end of nutritional requirements. Hers, on the other hand, wasn’t used to such poverty.
Our eyes caught, and my heart squeezed into a bleeding pile of excrement.
I wanted to say sorry.
I wanted to explain it wasn’t her who I’d tried to hurt. It wasn’t her fault. It was mine. Entirely, insanely mine. I should tell her that my mind was broken. That she should stay away from the loner in the valley who suspected he had schizophrenia on top of a whole mansion worth of issues.
But...my throat closed up.
I couldn’t be there anymore.
I couldn’t witness the betrayal in her stare.
With a grunt, I climbed to my feet, grabbed the key from my jeans pocket, undid the chain between us, and dove into the river.
I couldn’t fix her or myself.
But I could fix that fucking generator, even if it was the last thing I’d ever do.
CHAPTER TWENTY
HE UNDID IT.
I blinked at the splash where Kas had vanished underwater, my gaze flicking back and forth between the river and my ankle. The chain curled from my leg, still padlocked to me but not to him. The links were weighty and solid, but they coiled to nowhere...
How?
He’d said he’d never unlock us, ever.
So what...what the hell happened?
I touched my painful throat with shaking hands.
One second, he’d been explaining the hydro thing, and the next, he’d gone stone cold and white. Absolutely ghostly white with eyes wide, seeing something I couldn’t. I’d popped back up from being underwater and tried to get his attention with a soft tap on his shoulder, but he’d merely hunched into himself.