"You must have questions, Jack."
"She never answered them!" he told her.
"Well, maybe now's the time," Mrs. Oastler said. "Ask her again."
"Do you know something I don't, Leslie?"
"Definitely," she said. "But I'm not telling you. Ask your mom."
Outside, someone was screaming--probably in the parking lot near the hotel, but at Shutters on the Beach you could hear someone screaming all the way from the Santa Monica Pier. Perhaps it was the screaming that did it, but Jack's erection finally subsided.
"Oh, cute!" Mrs. Oastler said. (She was making a considerable effort to bring his penis back to life.) "It's like it's going away!"
"Maybe it's sad," he suggested.
"Remember that line, Jack," Emma had told him. "You can use it." And to think he hadn't been able to imagine under what circumstances an admission of your penis's sadness would be of any possible use!
But the word sad affected Leslie Oastler in a way Jack wouldn't have predicted. She let go of his penis and rolled over, turning her back to him. He didn't know she was crying until he felt the bed tremble; she was crying
without making a sound. Jack guessed that this was the eventually his mother had meant when she'd said that Leslie would break down, but--even in the act of falling apart--Mrs. Oastler was contained. Her small body shook, her face was wet with tears, her breasts were cool to his touch, but she never said a word.
When Jack woke up, he could hear Mrs. Oastler in the shower; room service had come and gone, unbeknownst to him. The pot of coffee, which was all that Leslie had ordered, was lukewarm. She'd already packed her small suitcase, and had laid flat (at the foot of the bed) the clothes she would wear on the plane--a black pantsuit, her bikini-cut panties, the little push-up bra. On her pillow, Mrs. Oastler had left a surprise for Jack: that photograph of Emma, naked, the one he'd kept. Leslie must have found it in the Entrada house; she wanted him to know she'd seen it.
The photo regarded Jack critically--Emma at seventeen, when Jack was ten and heading off to Redding. She had never been fitter. There was evidence of a matburn on one of her cheeks; probably Chenko, or one of the Minskies, had given it to her.
When Leslie Oastler came out of the bathroom, she was wearing a Shutters bathrobe and her hair was still wet. "Cute picture, huh?" Mrs. Oastler asked.
"Charlotte Barford took it," he said.
"Then she probably took more than one--didn't she, Jack?"
"An ex-girlfriend made me throw them away," he told her.
"She probably thought you threw all of them away, Jack."
"Right," he said.
"A famous guy like you shouldn't have pictures like that lying around," Mrs. Oastler told him. "But I'm not going to throw it away for you. I'm not likely to throw any photographs of Emma away--not now."
"No, of course not," he said.
Jack went and stood naked at the window, overlooking the parking lot; there was a partial view of the dead, motionless Ferris wheel, which resembled the skeleton of a dinosaur in the bleached-gray light. Santa Monica wasn't an early-morning town.
Mrs. Oastler came and stood behind him, holding his penis in both her hands; he had a hard-on in a matter of seconds. It seemed like such a betrayal of Emma--all of it. That was when Jack began to cry. He could tell that Leslie was naked because she was rubbing herself against his bare back. If she'd wanted to make love, he would have; that was probably why he was crying. The promises he'd made to Emma and his mother meant nothing.
"Poor Jack," Leslie Oastler said sarcastically. She let him go and dressed herself; her hair was so short, she could dry it easily with a towel. "You're going to have a busy day, I'm sure," she told him, "doing whatever literary executors do." Jack could have cried all day, but not in front of her. He stopped. He found his clothes and started to get dressed, putting Emma's photo in his right-front pocket. "Your mother will no doubt call you before I'm back in Toronto," Mrs. Oastler was telling him. "She'll want to know all about our night together--how we didn't sleep together, and all of that."
"I know what to say," he told her.
"Just be sure you talk to her, Jack. Ask her everything, while there's still time."
Jack finished dressing without saying anything. He went into the bathroom and shut the door. He tried to do something about his hair; he washed his face. He was grateful to Mrs. Oastler for leaving him her tube of toothpaste, if not her toothbrush, which he presumed she'd packed. He smeared a dab of toothpaste on his teeth with his index finger and rinsed his mouth in the sink. Jack heard the hotel-room door close before he was finished in the bathroom; when he came back out into the room, Leslie was gone.
He had some trouble leaving Shutters. Mrs. Oastler had paid the bill, but the paparazzi were waiting for him. Thankfully, they'd missed Mrs. Oastler. Someone had spotted Jack Burns having dinner with a good-looking older woman at One Pico; someone had figured out that they'd spent the night at Shutters.
"Who was the woman, Jack?" one of the photographers kept asking.
There were a few more paparazzi waiting for him at Entrada Drive, but that was to be expected. Jack wondered why they hadn't been there the night before; they could have followed him and Leslie to Shutters. He stripped Emma's bed and put her linens and towels in the washing machine; he straightened up the place a little. His mom called before he'd managed to make himself any breakfast. He told her that Leslie was already on the plane, and that they'd had a comforting night together.