A Widow for One Year - Page 137

He pedaled his bicycle over to the Bergstraat last. He had to wait for Anneke Smeets to be finished with a customer. Rooie had left her window room to Anneke in her will. It had probably helped to keep the overweight young woman off heroin, but the luxury of Anneke owning Rooie’s room had done a lot of damage to Anneke’s diet. She was too fat to fit into the leather halter top anymore.

“I want to come in,” Harry told Anneke, although he generally preferred to talk to her in the open air of the street; he had never liked how Anneke smelled. And it was now very late at night; Anneke smelled awful when she was ready to call it quits and go home.

“Is this a business call, Harry?” the overweight young woman asked. “Your business or mine?”

Sergeant Hoekstra showed her the author photo.

“That’s her. Who is she?” Anneke asked.

“Are you sure?”

“Of course I’m sure—it’s her. But what do you want with her? You got the killer.”

“Good night, Anneke,” Harry said. But when he stepped outside on the Bergstraat, he saw that someone had stolen his bicycle. This small disappointment was in the nature of the missing Jamaican prostitute being missing again. What did it really matter? Harry had the whole day off tomorrow: time enough to finish Ruth Cole’s new novel and buy a new bicycle.

There were no more than twenty or thirty murders in Amsterdam a year, most of them not domestic, but whenever the police dragged one of the canals (looking for a body), they found hundreds of bicycles. Harry couldn’t have cared less about his stolen bicycle.

Near the Hotel Brian, on the Singel, there were girls in window rooms where there had never been girls in the windows before. More “illegals,” but Harry was off duty; he left the girls alone and went into the Brian to ask the man at the reception desk to call him a taxi.

In a year’s time, the police would crack down on the “illegals”; soon there would be empty window rooms around the red-light district. Maybe Dutch women would once more be working in the windows. But by then Harry would be retired—it hardly mattered to him anymore.

Back in his apartment, Harry built a fire in his bedroom. He couldn’t wait to read the rest of Ruth Cole’s novel. With some Scotch tape, Sergeant Hoekstra stuck Ruth’s author photo on the wall beside his bed. The firelight flickered there as he read into the night; he only occasionally got out of bed, to build up the fire. In the flickering light, Ruth’s anxious face seemed more alive to Harry than it had seemed on the back of her book. He could see her purposeful, athletic walk, her alert presence in the red-light district, where he’d followed her with at first fleeting, then renewed interest. She had nice breasts, Harry remembered.

At last, five years after his friend’s murder, Sergeant Hoekstra had found his witness.

In Which Eddie O’Hare Falls in Love Again

As for Alice Somerset’s fourth and apparently final Margaret McDermid mystery— McDermid, Retired —if Harry Hoekstra had been disappointed in the ending, Eddie O’Hare had been devastated. It was not merely what Marion had written about the photographs of her lost boys: “One day she would find the courage to destroy them, she hoped.” More depressing was the overall fatalism of the retired detective. Sergeant McDermid was resigned to the permanence of the boys being lost. Even Marion’s effort to breathe a fictional life into the death of her sons had deserted her. Alice Somerset sounded as if she was finished with writing; McDermid, Retired struck Eddie O’Hare as an announcement that the writer in Marion had retired, too.

At the time, all Ruth had said to Eddie was: “Lots of people retire before they’re seventy-two.”

But now, four and a half years later, in the fall of ’95, there’d been no word from Marion—Alice Somerset had not written,

or at least not published, another book—and neither Eddie nor Ruth gave half as much thought to Marion as they used to. It sometimes seemed to Eddie that Ruth had written her mother off. And who could blame her?

Ruth was unquestionably (and deservedly) angry that neither Graham’s birth nor any of his subsequent birthdays had prompted an appearance from her mother. And Allan’s death a year ago, which might have inspired Marion to come forward and offer her condolences, had resulted in another no-show.

Although Allan had never been religious, he’d left very careful and specific instructions regarding what he wanted done in the event of his death. He wanted to be cremated and he’d asked to have his ashes scattered in Kevin Merton’s cornfield. Kevin, their Vermont neighbor and the caretaker for Ruth’s house in her absence, had a lovely, rolling cornfield—it was the principal view from Ruth’s master bedroom.

Allan hadn’t considered that Kevin and his wife might object; the cornfield was not Ruth’s property. But the Mertons had raised no objections. Kevin philosophized that Allan’s ashes would be good for the cornfield. And Kevin had told Ruth that if he ever had to sell his farm, he would sell her or Graham the cornfield first. (It was typical of Allan to have presumed on Kevin’s kindness.)

As for the house in Sagaponack, in the year that followed Allan’s death, Ruth would often think of selling it.

Allan’s memorial service was held at the New York Society for Ethical Culture, on West Sixty-fourth Street. His colleagues at Random House made all the arrangements. A fellow editor spoke first—a fond remembrance of Allan’s often intimidating presence at the venerable publishing house. Then four of Allan’s authors spoke; as his widow, Ruth was not among the speakers.

She’d worn an unfamiliar hat with a more unfamiliar veil. The veil had frightened Graham; she’d needed to beg the three-year-old’s permission before he allowed her to wear it at all. The veil had seemed essential to her—not out of reverence or because of tradition, but to mask her tears.

The majority of mourners and friends who’d come to pay their respects to Allan were of the opinion that the child clung to his mother throughout the service, but it was more the case that his mother clung to him. Ruth had held the three-year-old on her lap. Her tears were probably more disturbing to him than was the reality of his father’s death—at three, his sense of death was inexact. After several pauses in the memorial service, Graham whispered to his mother: “Where is Daddy now ?” (It was as if, in the child’s mind, his father were away on a journey.)

“It’s gonna be okay, baby,” Hannah, who was seated next to Ruth, whispered throughout the service. This irreligious litany was a surprisingly welcome irritation to Ruth. It distracted her from her grief. The mindlessness of Hannah’s repetition made Ruth wonder if Hannah thought she was consoling the child who’d lost his father or the woman who’d lost her husband.

Eddie O’Hare had been the last to speak. Allan’s colleagues had not chosen him, nor had Ruth.

Given Allan’s low opinion of Eddie as a writer and speaker, it frankly astonished Ruth that Allan had designated a role for Eddie at the memorial service. Just as Allan had chosen the music and the location— the latter for its nonreligious atmosphere—and just as emphatically as Allan had insisted on no flowers (he’d always hated the smell of flowers), Allan had left instructions that Eddie should speak last. Allan had even told Eddie what to say.

As always, Eddie was a little faltering. He fumbled about for some sort of introduction, which made it clear that Allan hadn’t told him everything that he was supposed to say—Allan hadn’t anticipated that he would die so young.

Eddie explained that, at fifty-two, he was only six years younger than Allan had been. The age factor was important, Eddie struggled to say, because Allan had left instructions for Eddie to read a certain poem— Yeats’s “When You Are Old.” What was embarrassing was that Allan had imagined that Ruth would already be an old woman when he died. He’d quite correctly assumed that, given the eighteen-year difference in their ages, he would die before she would. But, typical of Allan, he’d never imagined that he would die and leave his widow still a young woman.

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