My answers had varied.
They’d switched from stark, rage-filled refusal to stupidly giving him anything: accepting death and dying innocent and soon, or crawling on my knees in enslavement and doing whatever he asked in order to survive.
By the time the sun had risen, I’d been no wiser on what my choice would be.
Turned out, I’d just made it.
Survival instinct was too strong to ignore and everything else paled compared to death. I wanted to live. I’d barely begun. I would make any trade that would ensure I saw another day.
That includes letting a bastard like him touch me.
I looked at him.
I drank in the long shaggy hair, the silvery scars, the angry burning eyes. I studied the man who would most likely possess me in ways no other man had done before. He would know me better than any other.
And he would do it without my consent.
Sure, I was about to give him the right to touch me if he refrained from killing me. But it didn’t mean I would be a willing participant. I would lock away my mind and fortify my heart. I would give him the shell of who I was to retain the most important part of me.
Sex.
Would this make me a whore? Bartering my body for my life? Would I feel shame as he took me or vindication that I was brave enough to endure whatever it took to live?
My eyes skittered over to the PLB and its saluting antenna. It’d been hours since I’d activated it. If help truly was on the way, didn’t I owe it to them and myself to extend my lifespan? To give them a chance at finding me alive instead of some corpse hidden in this secret valley?
You can do this.
It’s just sex.
Just physical, nothing more.
Just an act that doesn’t mean a thing.
Raising my stare, I embraced every icy crystal in my blood from sleeping in this tomb and said as clearly, clinically, and coldly as possible. “My offer...is me.”
His eyebrows tugged low, shadowing his dark eyes. A spark of lust gleamed over his pupils. His nostrils flared as if scenting my disgust at such an offering, and his hands clenched into white-knuckled fists. Once again, he looked at me as if his gaze could strip me, finger me, tongue me, and claim me.
My nipples pebbled as he stared at my breasts and licked his bottom lip. My core tingled with disgusting acknowledgment as he looked between my legs and made a cauldron of hate and unwanted need answer back.
The power he held over his sexuality was the worst kind of weapon. The fact that he didn’t hide what he thought. That I knew exactly what he felt when he studied me. That he was moments away from snapping and mounting. That my offer had removed the shackles he’d put around his wrists, granting an almost sickening kind of disappointment.
He’d been looking forward to the fight. He’d wanted to be told no.
Why?
To humiliate me further? Because he had secrets of his own when it came to sex?
Either way, he nodded once, and a soft growl rumbled in his chest. “You.”
I curled my hands. “I’ll...do whatever you ask if you allow me to live and let me go.”
His eyes narrowed, pinning me to the floor. “Kneel.”
I blinked.
I opened my mouth to question, to argue.
He just wiped a hand over his lips and repeated in a guttural whisper, “Kneel.”
Had he accepted my offer, or was this a test?
Goosebumps multiplied over my body. I’d never been so powerless, so stripped of choice or refusal.
“Kneel!” he snarled, making me jump.
My knee nudged the PLB, tipping it over. The clunk was a reminder of why I’d offered, why I had to do this. With shaking hands, I righted the locator beacon and made sure the antenna faced toward the sky.
And then, I pushed aside my untouched, possibly poisoned breakfast and kneeled.
His harsh inhale made my stomach clench in ways I didn’t want to analyze. The heady huff of a male who didn’t hold back how desperate he was. How much his body burned. How much his lust broke him.
If I wasn’t being forced, I would’ve found his desire the headiest aphrodisiac. My skin would’ve scorched beneath his intensity. My core would’ve melted. My legs would’ve trembled to open.
In all my searchings for a suitable partner, I’d never come across a man who affected me on such a visceral level. A level devoid of humanity and conversation. We’d spoken a handful of words to each other, yet the heaviness of his need blanketed me.
It made my skin sizzle and my breasts burn. It made me sway on my knees as I forced myself to make eye contact with him and wait.
For an eternity, he just stared at me.
The longer he stared, the darker his stare became. He began to tremble, his hands shaking, his body quaking, his lust shattering him from the inside out. A part of him looked ferocious, like any killer, rapist, or devil in history. But the other part of him looked bewildered, afraid, and recklessly inexperienced.