Jason looked at her shocked. "Huh? But you said-"
"I'm bisexual. Always have been. I dated both guys and girls all through high school and college. It just happened that the person," Katie's voice caught in her throat and she couldn't talk for a moment. "I fell in love with and wanted to spend my life with was a woman. I always figured it could have gone either way, but it was her: Lydia. " She pulled out the camera and dared to waste a little bit of the battery flashing the picture to Jason.
"She's hot," Jason decided. "Where is she?"
Waving her hand distractedly, Katie stared at Lydia's beautiful smile, then snapped the phone shut with her other hand. "Somewhere out there.
One of them. "
Jason winced. "Sorry, Katie. "
"Me, too…me, too. "
"So…uh…you like guys?"
Katie laughed and lay back on the bed. "I've had some boyfriends. I was even engaged to a guy. "
"What happened?"
"To my engagement?"
"Yeah. "
"I met Lydia. And that was that. Six years of heaven with someone that is-she was just everything I needed. "
"I bet your boyfriend was mad. "
"Um…yeah. But we were together for all the wrong reasons. We worked together and shared ambitions. I think we took that to be more than it was. "
"Oh. So why did you say you were a lesbian?"
"So you'd pee!"
Jason frowned at her. "Yeah. Well…" He blushed.
"I often tell people I'm a lesbian just so they're comfortable. "
"I don't get it. "
"Well, people like absolutes. And it blows most of their minds to try to think that I could find men and women equally attractive and possible mates.
It just freaks them out. They want me to be one or the other. So, since I was with Lydia, it was just easier to say I was a lesbian. " Katie held the cell phone against her chest and tried not to cry.
"So you could end up with a guy or a girl?"
"Honestly, Jason, right now, I can't imagine being with anyone. I just…"
She rolled onto her side and faced the wall. "I just miss her. "
Jason was very quiet behind her. The minutes ticked by and hot tears flowed, a few dripping off the tip of her nose. How could she even imagine being with anyone ever again?
Lydia…oh. . Lydia…
"I just thought if you and Jenni hooked up you would take good care of her," Jason finally said softly.
Katie rolled over and gave him a soft smile. "That was a very sweet thing for you to say. "
"Well, you know, if you change your mind…" Jason faltered. "I mean…"