I laugh, the sound bitter. "She may not want to see me, specifically because of this whole plan of yours."
"Bullshit, Luke," Silas says. "We didn't tell you to keep her in the dark about all of this. That was all on you – your choice. And it's your choice to come clean to her. If you love her, you should be able to trust her."
Fuck. Silas is right. When the hell did Silas get so smart about this kind of thing? I told myself it was good for Autumn to be kept in the dark, that I was protecting her and Olivia. The truth is, I was still running away.
I need to see her.
CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
Autumn
"What are you doing here?" I ask, forcing a hardness in my voice I don't necessarily feel. Luke stands in my doorway, looking the way he usually does – sexy as hell. Except this time, he looks more nervous than cocky. Lucy stands there, beside him – and I swear he's taught her to make puppy dog eyes, because she looks at me and my heart melts. Almost.
"I have something to say to you."
"Well, I don't have anything to say to you," I tell him. But my voice wavers. "So you should leave."
"I don't think so," he says. "I'm not going anywhere. I'll sit out here all night if I have to."
It's seven in the evening, and it's already chilly, and Luke's saying he's willing to sit outside all night? Yeah, right. "Fine," I say. "But Lucy's welcome to come inside where it's warm."
I shut the door before he can say anything, and Lucy follows me into the kitchen as I make myself a cup of hot tea, willing myself not to look out the window to see if he's still there. It seems like it takes forever for the water to boil, and I'm still avoiding looking outside for Luke.
And feeling guilty for leaving him standing out there in the cold.
"Damn it, Lucy," I say, leaning down to scratch her behind the ears. "Your owner was smart, bringing you here. He knows I can't be mad at you." I walk to the front door and pull it open. "Are you really going to just stand there all night?"
"Am I wearing you down yet?" he asks. It sounds light, but there's an air of sadness in his demeanor.
"Is that a boom box at your feet?" I ask, finally noticing the large object on the porch beside him.
Luke grins. "I was going to pull a John Cusack and hold it over my head outside your window – or on the front porch – but I figured that since Olivia didn't run out here, she's probably asleep."
"She went to bed early," I say. "You've seen Say Anything?"
"You say that like you're surprised," he says.
I am surprised. Luke is full of surprises. "Do you have Peter Gabriel on the boom box?"
Luke laughs. "Yeah, right," he says. "I had enough trouble finding one of these to begin with, let alone music to go with it. I was going to cheat and use this." He holds up his MP3 player.
For a minute, I almost forget why he's here, and it's like things are back to the way they were before – light and joking and fun.
"Autumn," he says. "I know you think I'm a complete jackass."
"I've always thought you were a complete jackass."
"You know what I mean," he says. "Because of the text."
"And the other girl," I say.
"What other – oh, Tempest," he says. "That's my brother Silas' girl."
"So you're stealing your brothers' girlfriends?"
"What? No," he says. "It's – we were trying to cause a scene, in public. Shit, Autumn, I can explain all of this. I swear on my life I texted you because I thought I could keep you safe. I didn't want you involved in the bullshit I'm part of in right now."
"Yeah, right," I say. "But suddenly now it's safe? Suddenly you're okay with coming over here and involving me in whatever you're into?"
"No, damn it, Autumn," he says, stepping closer to me. He puts his hands on my arms, and looks down at me and I know if he keeps doing that, continues to look at me like that, I'm not going to be able to resist him. I silently curse my attraction to him, my stupid libido that's obviously out of control. "You're involved now. You got involved without realizing you're involved, and I want to make sure you're safe. Give me five minutes, and I'll tell you everything. The whole story, nothing held back."
"No more secrets," I say slowly. "No more lies."
"No more secrets," he repeats. "No lies. I promise. I'll tell you everything that's going on – all the family stuff I've been keeping from you."
I swallow hard, trying to decide whether to let him in. I hate deception and lies – my entire life with Edward was one giant fraud, and I can't do that again.
But when I look into Luke's eyes, all I see is sincerity. And pain.
So I say yes.
I say yes, and I let him inside.
It takes longer than five minutes for him to tell the story. Once he starts talking, it's like a floodgate is opened. Words pour from his mouth, and I just sit there listening as he tells me everything. He tells me about his parents and how they were both murdered. He tells me about the corruption in West Bend, the mayor and sheriff taking kickbacks from a dirty mining company. He tells me about his brother Silas, and Silas' fiancé, the girl I saw him with outside of the general store, the one I assumed he was with. He tells me about the con.
It takes far longer than five minutes. He talks and talks, sitting beside me on the sofa in the living room, just like we sat that night, the night he cooked for me. Except this time, the air hangs heavy between us.
When he's finished, he turns to look at me. "That's it," he says. "Now you know everything. You know about what a shitty family I come from, and – I never wanted to involve you in the con stuff, Autumn. I thought you'd be safer if you were kept in the dark. I thought it would be easier if you just hated me. It…fucking killed me to send you that text. That was the last thing I wanted to do. I told myself that it was better to keep you and Olivia as far away from it as possible. I was trying to do the right thing, but I did it all wrong. And if you forgive me, I’ll spend the rest of my time making it up to you.”
"The mining company is that dirty," I say, not quite processing everything he’s said. My mind is spinning with information, completely overloaded. "That's why you flipped your lid when you saw me having dinner with the guy from the company."
Luke clenches his hands. "That's not the only reason," he says.
"What's the other reason?" I ask, afraid to look at him. The air between us seems to be charged with electricity.
"Because you're mine, damn it," he says. "You're mine and I want you. It gutted me to see you on a date with another man."
"It wasn't a date," I say, turning toward him. "I only went because I was curious what was going on with the property buyouts. It didn't make any sense to me."
"Still," he says, looking at me.
"You think I'm yours, huh?" I ask, interrupting him.
"I want you to be mine," he says. "Say you're mine."
"I'm yours, Luke." I barely get the words out before his mouth comes crashing down on mine.
CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
Luke
I kiss her hard, running my hands through that long auburn hair of hers, before yanking off her clothes. This should be slow and gentle or something – after weeks of all of this bullshit. But it's the exact opposite of that. When I try to slow down, wrapping my mouth around her breast, my tongue flicking over her nipple, she pulls my head up to hers.
"I want you inside me," she whispers. "I need you inside me. I can't wait."
Fuck. If there's anything hotter than hearing those words come out of her mouth, I can't imagine what it would be.
We don't make it upstairs. We don't even make it very long on the sofa before we fall off onto the floor, limbs tangled together, Autumn giggling with her hand over the mouth, trying to be quiet so she doesn't wake Olivia.
But when I'm inside her, fucking her on the living room floor, there's nothing funny about that. Then she's quiet, making these little whimpers, barely more than a whisper, and looking into my eyes as I thrust inside her. Sh
e grips my ass cheeks, pulling me into her, wrapping her legs around me, encouraging me to fuck her harder.
"More, more," she whispers.
And I give her more. I fuck her harder, thrusting inside her sweet warm pussy that seems like it's made for me. When she whimpers, I mute her moans with my mouth. She clutches at my back, her fingernails digging into my skin, whispering my name.
Nothing in the world is better than hearing my name on her lips.
I move inside her, bringing her higher and higher until her pussy is so swollen around me I can barely take it any longer. Then she says the words: "Make me come, Luke."
I don't make her wait, not this time. I don't make her hold off the way I've done before. "Come with me, sweetheart," I say, and she does. As soon as I speak the words, she lets go, her pussy throbbing around me as she lets out a low moan. I let go, filling her up, her muscles milking me of every last drop.
Afterwards, she smiles as she looks at me. "I'm yours," she says.
Shit, she knows just what to say to me to make me hard as a rock again.
We don't make it off the living room floor for hours. I think we both have carpet burn, and I don't give a shit.
This is what I want – she is what I want.
When she rides me, sitting on my lap as I wrap my arms around her because I don’t want to let her go, her hair falls down around our faces like a curtain.
We fuck until we’re finally satisfied. Or exhausted. Or both.
"We should go upstairs," she murmurs, her voice soft as she lies with her head on my chest. I stroke her hair absently.
"We should," I say. I’m so relaxed I’m having a hell of a time keeping my eyes open. "Actually, I should go let Lucy out. I think she's camped out by the front door."
I stand, pulling on my clothes, pausing to admire Autumn as she slides a t-shirt over her head. She blushes when she catches me staring. "Hand me my pants," she says.
"I'd rather keep you naked," I tell her. But I toss them over anyway. "I hope you're not planning on staying dressed."
Then Lucy interrupts, from down the hallway somewhere, with a growl, low in her throat.
"Is that normal?" Autumn asks, her eyes wide. She pulls her jeans up and fastens the button. "She doesn't growl like that when she's here."
"Probably an animal," I say, my voice terse. I reach reflexively behind my back for my weapon, even though I know it's not there. Damn it. I didn't want to bring it into Autumn's place, not with her kid around, and I should have. Instead, it’s in my truck, where it’s useless.
Then Lucy comes into the living room, barking, the hackles on her fur standing straight up, and I know immediately something is wrong. Lucy heads upstairs, still growling.
"Where's she going?" Autumn asks. "Why is she going to Olivia's room?"
I put my hand on her. "We'll go grab Oli –"
Before I can finish, a window in the kitchen crashes. There's a blinding white light, followed by an explosion that knocks us to our knees. My arms around Autumn, I look past her, and see flames already licking the walls in the kitchen.
"Olivia!" Autumn screams. "We have to get her!"
I pull Autumn to her feet, holding her at arms' length by the shoulders. "I'm going to get her right now," I tell her. "Is there another way out of here, other than the front door?"
"I need to go up there!" she yells. "I'll go with you."
"Listen to me right now, Autumn," I yell. "There's no time. I will get her. I promise. Where is another way out of here?"
She's crying and she shakes her head, as if she's trying to think. "The laundry room," she says. "It opens onto the side."
"Is it by the kitchen?"
"No. It’s right over there," she says.
"Listen to me. Go out that way. I'll follow you. Do you have a weapon anywhere?"
"The cidery," she says. "Please. I need to go with you."
"Get out the laundry room door," I yell. "I'm right behind you, and I will have Olivia. There's a weapon in the glove box of my truck. Go to my truck or the cidery, wherever you can, and grab one of the weapons. We don't know who's outside."
She falters one more time, indecision written on her face, before turning and disappearing into the laundry room. I rush upstairs, where Lucy is barking at Olivia's crib. Olivia howls loudly, and I yank off my t-shirt before scooping her into my arms, covering her nose lightly with the fabric, which only serves to piss her off even further. Lucy darts down the stairs in front of us, standing at the bottom and barking at us.
"Come on, girl," I say, heading in the direction where I'd ordered Autumn a few minutes before. The fire hasn't spread to the laundry room, but the heat in the kitchen radiates into the other rooms, and the smoke billows into the rest of the house. "It's okay, Olivia. It's all going to be okay."
Fuck if I know that's true. But I say the words over and over as I carry her outside, into the freezing cold. I hold her against me as I jog around the side of the house, heading for the cidery.
"Do you really think I'm just going to let you run out of the house?" The voice comes from behind me, and I spin around. I'd recognize the voice anywhere. Jed Easton. He shines a flashlight in my eyes, blinding me, and Olivia screams louder than before. Lucy growls, and I know she'll lunge for Jed and he'll shoot her, so I order her to heel. "That dog comes at me, and I put her down, Saint."
"Heel, Lucy," I say, my tone low. She sits by my feet, her growl a low rumble in her throat. "A fire, Jed? With a kid inside the house? That’s low, even by your standards."
Jed chuckles. "Collateral damage," he says. "Besides, who would believe that you set the place on fire just to kill yourself? People are far more likely to believe that you set this place on fire because the slut here broke your heart. How does that saying go? If I can't have her, no one else will? That’s exactly why everyone will think you did it."
"You really think you're going to get away with this, Jed?" I ask. "Shooting me and the baby doesn't fit with the scenario you're describing."
"Walk," he says. "Away from the house. You're right, you know. But that's why you're always behind these things, Luke. You don't have the mind for anticipating what move I'm going to make next."
"Oh?" I ask, hushing Olivia under my breath, my chest tense. The first thing I need to do is get Olivia calmed down. Jed is on edge, and a crying toddler is only going to make things worse. I hum a few bars of a song under my breath – the only thing I can remember in the moment, Drunken Sailor, which is quite possibly the least appropriate toddler music choice ever -- as I wrap her in the t-shirt, holding her against my skin.
"Shut up," Jed says.
"I'm calming her down," I say. "Unless you'd rather hear her scream."
"I'd rather she shut the fuck up," he says. "Or I can just shut her the fuck up now."
I hear the unmistakable sound of a shotgun being cocked, and Luke's flashlight moves as he turns. I drop to the ground instinctively, Olivia in my arms, as soon as I hear the sound. A micro-second later, there's a shot, and Jed falls to the ground with a thud, groaning loudly.
Then Autumn is standing beside me, squatting down toward us, and taking Olivia from my arms. She hands me the shotgun and Jed's weapon. "I got him in the arm," she says. "We should probably call 911 or something."
"Shit, Red," I say. Adrenaline is coursing through my veins, my entire body tensed. "Where the fuck did you learn to shoot like that? You know he had his weapon drawn on us."
She holds Olivia against her chest, cooing to her softly before breaking into a lullaby that's only vaguely familiar to me. "I'm from Kentucky, Luke," she says. "I can handle a shotgun."
"Remind me never to get on your bad side," I say.
“If you break up with me via text message ever again, all bets are off.”