“Thank the gods it’s just not all about butt sex,” he said faintly.
“But you see what I mean? Awkward, but no benefits of having gotten there.”
“I suppose that’s my fault.”
I laughed. “Yes. I suppose it is.”
“I don’t expect you to understand.”
“I don’t,” I said. “And I don’t care to anymore. I’m done fighting. Aren’t you done fighting?”
He didn’t answer.
“I’m done fighting,” I said again. “Fighting you. Fighting for you. Fighting against you. I’m done. It makes things easier.”
“What things?” he asked quietly.
I raised my arm and waved my hand toward the stars. “This. These things. Everything.”
“That’s… all encompassing. As usual.”
“Like a tornado.”
“Uh. Sure? Are you drunk?”
“Not this time. Maybe tomorrow night. No offense, but Gary, Tiggy, and I will probably get drunk and besmirch your name a bit.”
He took a step toward me. I refused to look at him, but I could still see him in the periphery.
“Besmirch, huh?”
“So much besmirching,” I said. “You don’t even know how besmirched you’ll be.”
“I think I have an idea,” he said. “I traveled with you three for weeks. It’ll probably get a tad vicious.” He took another step. Like he was aiming for subtlety. Nonchalance. He was failing miserably.
And it was getting dangerously close to reminiscing again. That wouldn’t bode well for my Plan of Not Caring. Nothing ruins Not Caring like Willful and Fond Reminiscing. I hoped he hadn’t capitalized the plan in his head yet. “Eh,” I said. “I won’t let it get too bad. Maybe some choice curse words here and there but nothing too bad. I won’t hex you or anything.”
“Could you do that?”
“Probably. I don’t really know what I’m capable of anymore.”
“Lightning,” he said and took another step.
I sighed. “Yeah. I’ve been through worse. Randall just likes to try and get a rise out of me.”
“It looked like he was trying to kill you.”
“Nah. He knows I’d come back and haunt his ass. He wouldn’t dare.”
“What did it feel like?”
I was starting to get irritated. “Gods, sit down if you’re going to stay here. Stop hovering. You’re making it worse.”
“You aren’t going to run?” he asked, a light tease, and I had to remind myself that I didn’t care.
“You’re the one that’s been running lately,” I said.
That shut him up right quick. He sat down next to me, carefully maintaining a slight distance like I was a cornered, skittish animal. He huffed out a breath, then lay down on his back, looking up thr