Time ticked by. She stared at the clock, her thoughts drifting to the past and future.
After a few hours, she heard Dhiro walking around. The usual sounds came from the kitchen, letting her know dinner was being cooked. He took care of her physically, but she needed more than her basic needs met to be happy.
She stayed in the bedroom, hunger meaning nothing to her.
He didn’t seek her out.
Grabbing his pillow, she held it close to her body, hating her own hope for putting her through this. She thought Dhiro was different. He’d claimed to be so.
How could he be different when all he seemed to be doing was ignoring her?
“Ella, here you are. You were not out in the garden,” Dhiro said. “Dinner will be ready in ten minutes.”
Tears filled her eyes. “I want to go home.”
She hadn’t meant to say the words, but they left her lips in a rush. Other than biting her lip, she made no other sound to take them back or to apologize.
Dhiro moved to her side. “Ella, what is the matter?” He placed his hand on her forehead.
She wanted to jolt away, but his touch was everything. Even his scent was addicting.
“I want to go home,” she said. “My time here is done, and you’ve gotten what you wanted, or you hate me, or there’s something going on in your head that I’m not privy to.” She stopped to take a breath. “You’ve realized what a giant, big mistake you’ve made, and it’s time for me to go home.” She couldn’t stop the tears from falling as she spoke. It hurt her to say this when she had such fairy-tale dreams.
Dhiro had crashed into her world, abducted her, taken her to a place that was so far away from home, bred her, and broken her heart, all within a matter of a few weeks. She was pregnant, she was almost sure of it, and so incredibly sad that her abilities in the bedroom weren’t good enough for him.
She wasn’t good enough for him.
“I don’t understand what is going on,” Dhiro said.
“Then you tell me. Tell me why you’ve been ignoring me. Tell me what I’ve done to make you stop caring about me. Have you realized what a horrible woman you’ve picked? A fat, ugly human female when you can have your pick of any one of your beautiful women?”
Her hormones were also out of complete whack.
This conversation was moving too fast for her.
Dhiro cupped her cheek and slammed his lips down on hers.
Ella froze as the sudden intimacy took her by surprise. She wanted him so much. Grasping his arms, she held on to him, needing more of him to surround her. The kiss he gave her sent her hormones even further out of whack.
He kissed her like he was a drowning man. She didn’t want him to stop.
Breaking the kiss, she rested her head against his chest. His heart raced. “Tell me what’s going on,” she said. “You’re confusing me. Why are you ignoring me?”
“Ella, I didn’t realize I was ignoring you.” He cupped her face, forcing her to tilt her head back. “I…”
“You’ve been different since our time together. Since I gave you pleasure.”
Dhiro sighed.
“Was I that bad?” she asked. “I know that it takes time and practice.”
“I shouldn’t have allowed you to do that to me, Ella. It was wrong and it was selfish. My shame has stopped me from coming to you.” He kissed her lips. “I will never ask you for anything like that again.”
Ella frowned. “But I liked it.”
“What?”
“I liked giving you pleasure. I liked seeing you come apart. There was nothing wrong with what I did to you. We both enjoyed it.”
“I … your eyes were watering after I finished.”
Ella tried to remember, and then she chuckled.
“I’m confused,” he said. “You’re laughing.”
Maybe them being from different planets didn’t exactly help with communication. “Dhiro, do you still find me attractive?” she asked.
“Yes. Always. It has been hard to keep away from you. Nearly impossible. You have also not desired me to touch you. I guessed that you didn’t like having me in your mouth, and you were ashamed of me.”
“Far from it.” Happiness rushed through her, and she was somewhat relieved. She would have gone back home but with a heavy heart, and in truth, with an alien baby in her stomach. She didn’t even want to think of the implications of that little anomaly. “Dhiro, I wasn’t crying. I wasn’t emotional. I loved having you in my mouth.” This was a whole new experience for her. “How do I say this?” She nibbled on her lip. “You’re a very big man in that department, and you went past my gag reflex. Because of that, it makes my eyes water. It’s not a voluntary thing.” She was bad at this. Considering her love of education and teaching, talking about a woman’s anatomy and sexual education to an alien man, yeah, she needed to do a little better.