I feel helpless and scared, and that feeling builds and builds.
“I can’t figure it out,” I tell her desperately. “That’s the problem. You’re dead. I don’t know where you are.”
“You can,” she assures me. “You must. Energy cannot be destroyed. I’m everywhere.”
I squeeze my eyes closed and when I do, the images shimmer and change.
I’m getting into a car.
Finn is with me, and my father, too.
“If I’m going, I’m driving,” I tell them.
And I drive down the mountain.
And my mother,
My moth
er,
My mother.
The night is dark, the ground is cold.
The words whisper and morph and I’m confused.
I look at Olivia.
“That isn’t what happened.”
She nods and she’s sad and her eyes become headlights.
I startle, and my eyes open.
Sabine is waiting for me, waiting for answers.
All I have are questions,
And confusion,
And lies.
It didn’t happen that way.
Sabine is still waiting, her eyes dark.
“Did you see Olivia?”
I nod. Because I did see her.
“What was around her? The sea? Was there anything else?”
I shake my head.
“No. She was just standing in front of me.”
Sabine clucks, and she’s patient. “You must open your mind, Calla. Let it come.”