My eyes went to the ground, and I looked at her carefully painted toenails in comfortable looking sandals. I had a creeping, distinct feeling I was losing here. It wasn’t just a matter of getting her to sleep with me, either. I mean, yeah – I definitely wanted to – but I’d be happy just being with her for the moment.
What the hell was happening to me?
“Still, there is something about you,” she murmured.
“Something good?” I asked as my eyes shot back up to her face. I hoped it was something good. I might have even prayed.
“I think so,” she said, “but I’m going to have to find out for sure.”
She took a quick step forward, placing herself between my legs, and pressed her warm lips against mine.
No doubt – I knew it wasn’t just her eyes I liked.
It was everything.
Chapter 5
Maybe being famous to just one person would be all right with me.
I kinda wanted to kiss her with our eyes open, just so I could keep watching hers, but that would have just been weird. No one kisses with their eyes open, do they? Besides, I still wasn’t too sure what she thought of me – notwithstanding the tongue in my mouth.
Her hands went up around my neck and tugged at the back of my head. I didn’t need much encouragement and quickly wrapped my arms around her waist to bring her against my body. My mouth moved against hers with practiced pressure, and on her tongue, I tasted the vodka and cranberry she had been drinking.
She broke away for a moment, panting. Her eyes darted around my face, and I was about to ask her what was wrong when she pulled me to her again, this time pressing her body tight against mine as she kissed me.
I couldn’t help but respond…some things are just automatic.
“I want that,” she growled against my lips as she placed her foot against the railing behind me, effectively opening her legs and pressing her warmth against my growin
g cock.
“Fuck,” I whispered as I was engulfed in heat. My hands dropped to her ass, and I pulled us closer together.
She broke away again but didn’t break our body contact. Her eyes looked into mine, and one of her hands reached up to cup the side of my face.
“This is so stupid,” Milena mumbled under her breath. “It is – I know it is. I don’t care though.”
“Does it have to be stupid?” I asked, immediately feeling stupid. “I mean, can’t we just…we could…”
I didn’t even know what I wanted to say – I only knew it was important for this to not end. I didn’t care if we stayed out here on the patio and made out, or smoked cigarettes, or went inside and sat with the others. I didn’t want this…this – whatever it was – to stop. I didn’t want her to go away.
“I live close by,” she said. “Five-minute walk.”
My eyes met hers, and I tried to focus on her words instead of just the shimmering colors. If any other girl had said the same words, I would have known immediately what she meant. With her, I was too afraid for it to not be true.
I didn’t want to chance it.
“I don’t want a one night stand with you,” I said.
She stared at me for a long moment.
“I don’t either,” she finally replied.
“I want…” I paused, unable to put my thoughts into words.
“Tell me this is more,” Milena said as she reached up and pulled my head a little closer to her. She stared me right in the eyes. “Tell me this isn’t more of your bullshit like those girls in there said it was. Tell me you’re feeling this.”
I nodded between her palms.