His thick, ringed fingers squeeze my shoulders. I flinch.
“What do you remember?”
“Garrett, when I saw his face. I remember Mia… Or at least, I remember her fucking name. It’s on this ring…”
Mac groans. Some part of me remembers that sound… The sound someone heard right before a beatdown.
“I remember where I’ve been the last few days. I remember the accident. This girl, Lucy, she’s been taking care o’ me. She’s here with me. She can back up the story.”
“Lucy?” he spins me around to look at him. Almost comically, he asks, “Lucy Palermo? You did all this for Lucy fucking Palermo?”
“No… Her name is… Rivers. Lucy Rivers. She’s just the girl who found me the night I wrecked. Put my shoulder back in its fucking socket. She’s from down in Baddock National Park. Who the fuck is Lucy Palermo?”
“Kid…” I give him a blank look. “You don’t remember a Lucy Palermo in your life?” I shake my head. “Then you need a fucking hospital.”
“Mac, look, I don’t know why but I can’t go to a hospital. What if I get arrested?”
“You lose your goddamn balls in that accident? Get up. We’re taking you to get some help. Don’t you think for one second this is me letting you off the hook. Best believe one of the boys will be at your side twenty-four-seven watching what you’re up to. If I find out you’re lying to me, I’ll cut your motherfucking dick off. We’ll finish this conversation later. Got it?”
“Got it.”
We move through the clubhouse and bar where someone catches my elbow. “Landon,” she says. “Thought you were going for good.”
“…Mia.”
She looks at me with a smile.
“You back to apologize?” she says.
I did something to her too?
This woman looks nothing like Lucy. Mia is Italian, sexy, tough-looking with full lips, full hips and full tits. She’s got long curly black hair and fuck-me green eyes…. And they don’t do a goddamned thing for me. She moves in close, and all I want to do is run.
“You want Mami to cook you dinner tonight?” she whispers in my ear.
“Landon. Get out here. We’re taking you to the emergency room.”
I’m pulled away from Mia who I shrug an answer at.
“What the fuck?” she says with her hands presented and a face like a smacked ass. Her friends comfort her since I’m overwhelmed from being manhandled out of the place to apologize.
Garrett and Rev take me to the emergency unit and have me stashed me into the back of the MC’s cage like some stowaway. They have their music blasting loudly in the cab. I try yell over it through the black divider that separates me from them.
“Talk to me! The fuck is this?”
“I told you, brother, we can’t,” Garrett says.
I slap the cage hard. “I have questions!”
“Yeah, so do we, bro, but let’s save it a few days.”
“Who is Lucy?”
“Don’t give me that that shit, Landon.”
“Mac said I knew someone named Lucy Palermo.”
Rev turns the music up to an unbearable level then makes a sharp corner. I’m thrown at the side of the van as it hurtles onto the freeway. I give up for now and take a knee in the back beside a handlebar.
It isn’t long before a flashlight is shining directly in my eye against my will. The doctor checks my vitals and asks a few questions. Then a specialist comes in to quiz me on my memory. It’s tedious. I don’t need it. More and more, I’m willing to live with the amnesia if it means that I can keep from dealing with whatever club bullshit I managed to get myself into… You can’t hate someone who doesn’t remember what they did wrong. Best you can do is judge them on how they live their life from here on out. But I’m starting to think my life isn’t quite as ideal as I might want it to be. I made mistakes. I have to face the consequences.
“So, what’s the prognosis, Doc?” Garrett asks.
“It’s slightly abnormal post-trauma amnesia. It may take a few months until he’s really recouped but it shouldn’t be anything permanent. He’s recognized you both already and any facts about himself should come back in a few days. It’s just lucky he was wearing his helmet. Mr. Ellers, you really should’ve come to us right after the accident. Next time it happens, you might not be so lucky.”
“Lucky? Ha.” I cough a laugh at her.
“Right. Well, listen, there’s no magic drug to cure this except Father Time. I’ve got a prescription for some pain meds for you and something to aid memory function. Follow the dosage instructions, keep away from situations that might cause further head trauma, like drinking, motorcycle accidents and fighting, and do the best you can to keep stress levels down. It can exacerbate memory problems.”
“Best keep your distance from Mia then, hey bro?” Garrett says with a hearty chuckle.
“Why?” I ask.
“G, not now,” Rev cuts in. “What’d the doc just fuckin’ say?”
“So, I’m free to go?”
“It’s up to you, Mr. Ellers. You’re welcome to stay in a shared room and we’ll check in on you periodically to see if your condition deteriorates. However, since it’s been days since the accident anyway, your cheapest option would be head home and get some rest then report back if you get any unusual headaches or you feel anything out of the ordinary. Your condition isn’t bad but you’re fragile. Be very cautious.”
“Landon doesn’t know cautious, ma’am, but we’ll keep him in line for you. He’s going back to the clubhouse and we’re not going to let him go anywhere…”
“I need to talk to Lucy before we go back,” I protest.
“Don’t worry about Lucy. Mac is taking care of that little problem.”
Chapter 20
I’m taking the fact that Landon’s not back as good news…For him, at least. I know Big Sal’s. It’s the Devils’ Dragons strip-joint they own and the MC’s clubhouse is hidden out back. I knew he’d find people he knew there. Maybe he’s forgotten about me too, at this point. I don’t let it worry me too much for now. My day’s gone exactly to plan. Despite missing Landon and wondering if he’s remembering anymore about me, I’ve kept myself distracted and hidden away. Plus my Chinese food was filthy and delicious.
The fortune from the cookie read:
A ship in harbor is safe, but that’s not why ships are built.
The sentiment strengthens me today. I am that ship that sailed far on its odyssey and returned home, still afloat…if only just.
A quiet knock on the door makes my heart jump. I ease out of bed and go to let Landon in. Every nerve ending in my body is on edge. Will he remember me? Will he be able to forgive me?
I swing the door open with an apprehensive smile, but it quickly turns to a scream as a grizzly-bear of a man reaches through and grabs me up, his hand clamping down over my mouth as the door closes behind him.
“Lucienne, my dear. It’s been a while. I’m going to let go, but you need to promise me you’re not going to scream again… Give me a little nod that you understand.”
I go limp against him, nodding ever so slightly.
He lets me go and I step back away from him, stumbling toward the bed in my t-shirt and panties.
“I think you have a little explaining to do, little girl.”
“Mac… I’m sorry…”
“Sorry?” he says viciously. “The both of you get amnesia or what? You fall off his bike at the same time?”
“No,” I say, unable to hide my trembling voice.
“We had a deal, me, you and Landon, Lucy. I help you take care of that fucked up father of yours, you work for me or you leave town.”
“I didn’t ask you to bring Landon into it!” I shouted, tears starting to stream down my face. “You tore us apart.”
Mac sucks on a toothpick, grinning. “You should have stayed apart.”
“He came to me, Mac… I was just trying to help…”
The way the old
man’s eyes move over my body makes my skin crawl the same way mom’s old friends used to when they’d come visit. I cross my arms to hide my body
“You’re a wily one, huh?” He gives a wide grin. “Just like your mama was.”
“Fuck you.” Keep pushing, Lucy, keep fighting.
“Right. I get it. It’s good to be on guard in a man’s world, baby girl. I won’t stop you. Just one thing I gotta ask though: You in love with him again?”
“Again?” I say, knowing how foolish this charade is but sticking to it nonetheless. “We’ve always been friends…Barely friends.”