Lizzie cursed in her head. What was her problem? The man asks her in for breakfast right after his father dies and she’s checking him out as if he were an eHarmony candidate?
Then again, it was probably biology talking. After all, when had she last been alone with a man? As she counted up the months, then hit the one-year, then two-year mark, she winced.
Two and a half years ago? How had that happened?
“What’s wrong?” Sean asked, obviously catching her expression.
Yeah, like she was going to parade her Death Valley dating life in front of him? “Oh, nothing.”
“So what was I about to ask you? Oh…your mother. You said she’s still up in Essex?”
“Ah, yes, she is. She’s an artist and she loves living by the sea. She keeps busy painting and sketching and trying out just about every kind of creative endeavor you can think of.”
To keep her eyes off him, Lizzie folded her paper napkin into a precise square—and thought about her mother’s origami period. That year, the Christmas tree had been covered with pointy-headed swans and razor-edged stars. Most of them had been off-kilter, mere approximations of what they were supposed to be, but her mother had adored them, and because of that, Lizzie had loved them, as well.
For no particular reason, she said, “My mother is what they used to call fey. Lovely and…”
“All in her head?”
“Precisely.”
“So you take care of her, huh? She relies on you for the practical stuff.”
As Lizzie flushed, she murmured, “Either you’re very perceptive, or I’m quite transparent.”
“Little bit of both, I think.”
As he smiled, her heart tripped and fell into her gut. Oh…God, he was handsome.
“How long are you in town?” she blurted. And then couldn’t believe she’d asked. It wasn’t that the question was forward on the surface, but more because she was angling to see him again in a situation just like this. The two of them alone.
Can you say desperate, she thought.
“I’m going back to the city tomorrow—well, that’s today, isn’t it?” He wiped his mouth and took a drink from his glass of orange juice. “But I’ll be back. I’ve got to clean out this place.”
“Are you going to sell?”
“No reason to keep it. But I’ll make sure you’re in the loop.”
“Thank you. I really liked living here.”
“Hopefully you won’t have to leave. I can’t believe anyone would want to turn this into a one-family.”
“I think I’m going to want to move, though.”
“Why?”
She looked around. “It won’t be the same without him.”
Sean frowned and fell silent so she got up and took both their plates to the sink. As she washed them with a sponge she’d bought a week and a half ago, she tried not to think that Mr. O’Banyon had still been alive back then.
“So you and my father were real tight, huh?”
She held a plate under the rushing water. “We used to watch TV together. And we always ate dinner up here on Sundays. We also looked out for each other. It was nice to think someone wondered whether or not I made it back from my night shifts. Made me feel safer.”
And cared for.
With her mother, Lizzie had always been the watcher, the worrier, the keeper…even when she’d been young. For the time she had known Mr. O’Banyon, it had been really nice to be something other than a ghost on the periphery of someone’s artistic inspiration.
Feeling awkward, she asked, “So do you live right in Manhattan?”
“Yeah.”
“I’ve always wanted to go there,” she murmured as she put the plate in the drying rack. “It seems so exciting and glamorous.”
“City’s not far from here. Just drive down some time.”
She shook her head, thinking of the time she would have to take off from work. “I couldn’t really afford to. With two jobs, my hours are long and my mother needs the money more than I need a vacation. Besides, who am I kidding? I’m a homebody at heart.”
“And you were happy being a homebody here. With my father.”
She picked up a towel and began to dry what she’d washed. “Yes, I was.”
“Were you lovers?”
“What?”She nearly dropped the skillet. “Why would you think that?”
His eyes were cold and cynical as he said, “Not unheard-of.”
“Maybe to you. We were friends. Good Lord…”
She quickly put away the dishes, hung up the towel and headed for the exit. “Thank you for breakfast.”
He rose from the table. “Elizabeth—”
“Lizzie.” She stepped around him pointedly. “Just Lizzie.”
He took her arm in a firm grip. “I’m sorry if I offended you.”
She leveled her stare on his hard face. His apology seemed sincere enough; though his eyes remained remote, they didn’t waver from hers and his tone was serious.
She reminded herself that he was under a lot of stress and it was four—well, almost five in the morning. She cleared her throat. “It’s all right. This is a hard time for you right now.”
“Hard time for you, too, right?”
“Yes,” she said in a small voice. “Very. I’m going to miss him.”
Sean reached out and touched her cheek, surprising her. “You know something?”
“What?”
“A woman like you should have someone waiting up for her, Lizzie.”
In a flash, she became totally aware of him down to the details of his beard’s dark shadow and the hazel of his eyes and…
And the fact that he was looking at her mouth.
From out of nowhere, an arc of heat supercharged the air between their bodies and Lizzie had to part her lips to breathe.
Except just as she did, his face masked over and he dropped her arm. “I’ll walk you to the door.”
He turned away as if nothing had happened.
Okay…so had she just imagined all that?
Apparently.
Lizzie forced herself to walk out of the kitchen and found him standing next to the apartment’s open door. As if she’d overstayed her welcome.
***
As Sean waited for Lizzie to come from the kitchen, he figured he either needed to put his long-tailed button-down shirt on or get her out of here. Because his body was stating its opinion of her loud and clear, and he didn’t want to embarrass the poor woman.
He was totally, visibly aroused. And the quick rearrange he’d done as he’d walked through the living room had only helped so much.
Then things got worse. As she came over, he started to wonder exactly what was under that baggy shirt of hers—and his “problem” got harder.
“Are you going to have a funeral for him?” she asked.
Well, at least that question slapped him back to reality.
“No. He’ll be cremated and interred next to my mother. Told me ten years ago he didn’t want any kind of memorial service.” Man, that had been an ugly phone call. His father had been drunk at the time, naturally, and had maintained he didn’t want his three sons dancing on his coffin.
Sean had hung up at that point.
“That’s a shame.” Lizzie tucked a piece of blond hair behind her ear. “For both of you. People should be remembered. Fathers should be remembered.”
As those green eyes met his, they were like looking into a still pond, gentle, calming, warm. Teamed with the heat that had sprung up in his blood, the impact of her compassionate stare was like getting sucker punched: a surprise that numbed him out.
Unease snaked through him. Stripped of defenses and vaguely needy was not what he wanted to be, not around anyone.