"I don't think so," she said gently. "We've just spent all day in the pool."
"Ah, Mom... please? You don't have to go with me--you can watch me from the deck."
She hesitated, and Kevin knew he had her. "Please," he said again, giving her his most earnest smile.
"All right, you can go. But don't go out too deep, okay?"
"I won't, I promise," he said excitedly. After seizing the towel Garrett handed him, he ran down to the water. Garrett and Theresa sat on the deck and watched him as he began to splash around.
"He's quite a young man," Garrett said quietly.
"Yes, he is," she said. "And I think he likes you. At lunch when you went to the bathroom, he said you were cool."
Garrett smiled. "I'm glad. I like him, too. He's one of the better students I've had."
"You're just saying that to please me."
"No, I'm not. He really is. I meet a lot of young kids in my classes, and he's very mature and well-spoken for his age. And he's nice, too. Too many kids are spoiled these days, but I don't get that sense about him."
"Thank you."
"I mean it, Theresa. After hearing about your worries, I wasn't sure what to expect. But he's really a great kid. You've done a good job raising him."
She reached for his hand and kissed it gently. She spoke quietly.
"It means a lot to me to hear you say that. I haven't met many men who want to talk about him, let alone spend time with him."
"Then it's their loss."
She smiled. "How come you always know exactly what to say to make me feel good?"
"Maybe it's because you bring out the best in me."
"Maybe I do."
That evening Garrett took Kevin to the video store to pick up a couple of movies he wanted to watch and ordered pizza for the three of them. They watched the first movie together, eating in the living room. After dinner Kevin slowly began to fade. By nine o'clock he'd fallen asleep in front of the television. Theresa nudged him gently, telling him it was time to leave.
"Can't we just sleep here tonight?" he mumbled, only half-conscious.
"I think we should go," she said quietly.
"If you want, you two can sleep in my bed," Garrett offered. "I'll stay out here and sleep on the couch."
"Let's do that, Mom. I'm really tired."
"Are you sure?" she asked, but by then Kevin had already begun to stagger in the direction of the bedroom. They heard the springs squeak as Kevin plopped down on Garrett's bed. Following him, they peeked in the door. In a moment he was sleeping again.
"I don't think he's giving you much choice," Garrett whispered.
"I'm still not sure it's a good idea."
"I'll be a perfect gentleman--I promise."
"I'm not worried about you--I just don't want to give Kevin the wrong impression."
"You mean you don't want him to know we care about each other? I think he already knows that."
"You know what I mean."
"Yeah, I know." He shrugged. "Look, if you want me to help you get him out to the truck, I'd be glad to do it."
She stared at Kevin for a moment, listening to his deep, even breaths. He looked dead to the world.
"Well, maybe one night wouldn't hurt," she relented, and Garrett winked.
"I was hoping you'd say that."
"Now don't forget your promise to be a perfect gentleman."
"I won't."
"You sound so sure about it."
"Hey... a promise is a promise."
She gently closed the door and put her arms around Garrett's neck. She kissed him, biting him teasingly on the lip. "That's good, because if it was just up to me, I don't think I could control myself."
He winced. "You really know how to make it tough on a guy, don't you?"
"Does that mean you think I'm a tease?"
"No," he said quietly. "It means I think you're perfect."
Instead of watching the second movie, Garrett and Theresa sat on the couch, sipping wine and talking. Theresa checked on Kevin a couple of times, making sure he was still asleep. He looked as if he hadn't moved at all.
By midnight Theresa was yawning steadily, and Garrett suggested that she get some sleep.
"But I came down here to see you," she protested drowsily.
"But if you don't get your sleep, I'll look blurry."
"I'm fine, really," she said before yawning again. Garrett rose and went to the closet. He pulled out a sheet, blanket, and pillow and brought them to the couch.
"I insist. Try to get some sleep. We have the next few days to see each other."
"Are you sure?"
"Positive."
She helped Garrett get the couch ready and went to the bedroom. "If you don't want to sleep in your clothes, there are some sweats in the second drawer," he said.
She kissed him again. "I had a wonderful day today," she said.
"So did I."
"I'm sorry for being so tired."
"You've done a lot today. It's completely understandable."
With their arms entwined, she whispered in his ear, "Are you always this easy to get along with?"
"I try."
"Well, you're doing a heck of a job."
A few hours later Garrett woke to the sensation of someone nudging him in the ribs. Opening his eyes, he saw Theresa sitting next to him. She was wearing the sweats he'd mentioned earlier.
"Are you okay?" he asked, sitting up.
"I'm fine," she whispered, stroking his arm.
"What time is it?"
"A little after three."
"Is Kevin still sleeping?"
"Like a rock."
"Can I ask why you got out of bed?"
"I had a dream and I couldn't fall back to sleep."
He rubbed his eyes. "What was the dream about?"
"You," she said in hushed tones.
"Was it a good dream?" he asked.
"Oh, yes..." She trailed off. She leaned over to kiss his chest, and Garrett pulled her closer. He glanced toward the bedroom door. She had closed it behind her.
"Aren't you worried about Kevin?" he asked.
"A little, but I'm going to trust you to be as quiet as possible."
She reached under the blanket and ran her fingers across his belly. Her touch was electric.
"Are you sure about this?"
"Uh-huh," she said.
They made love tenderly, quietly, and afterward they lay beside each other. For a long time, neither of them spoke. When the faintest hint of light began to brush the horizon, they kissed good night and she returned to the bedroom. Within a few minutes she was sleeping soundly, and Garrett watched her from the doorway.
For some reason, he found it impossible to fall asleep again.
The following morning, Theresa and Kevin did the workbook together while Garrett ran off to pick up some fresh bagels for breakfast. Again they headed off to the pool. This time the lessons were a little more advanced, covering a number of different skills. Theresa and Kevin practiced "buddy breathing" in the event that either one of them ran out of air when underwater and had to share one tank, and Garrett warned of the dangers of panicking while diving and rushing to the surface too quickly. "If you do that, you'll get what's called 'the bends.' It's not only painful--it can be life-threatening."
They also spent time in the deep end of the pool, swimming underwater for extended periods, getting used to the equipment and practicing how to clear their ears. Toward the end of their lesson, Garrett showed them how to jump off the side of the pool without having their masks come off. Predictably, both of them were tired after a few hours and ready to call it a day.
"Will we go into the ocean tomorrow?" Kevin asked as they were walking back to the truck.
"If you'd like to. I think you're ready, but if you'd rather spend another day in the pool, we could do that instead."
"No, I'm ready."
"Are you sure? I don't want to rush you."
"I'm sure," he said quickly
.
"How about you, Theresa? Are you ready for the ocean?"
"If Kevin's ready, then I'm ready."
"Am I still going to get certified by Tuesday?" Kevin asked.
"If the ocean dives go well, you both will."
"Awesome."
"What's up for the rest of the day?" Theresa asked.
Garrett started loading the tanks in the back of the truck. "I thought we'd go sailing. It looks like it's going to be great weather."
"Can I learn how to do that, too?" Kevin asked eagerly.
"Sure. I'll make you my first mate."
"Do I need to be certified for that, too?"
"No--that's up to the captain, and since I'm the captain, I can do it right now."
"Just like that?"
"Just like that."
Kevin looked at Theresa with wide eyes, and she could almost read his thoughts. First I learn how to dive, then I become a first mate. Wait until I tell my friends.
Garrett was accurate in predicting ideal weather, and the three of them had a wonderful time on the water. Garrett taught Kevin the basics of sailing--from how and when to tack to anticipating the direction of the wind based on the clouds. As on their first date together, they had sandwiches and salads, but this time they were treated to a family of porpoises that frolicked around the boat as they ate.
It was late by the time they made it back to the docks, and after Garrett showed Kevin how to close up the boat to protect it from unexpected storms, Garrett brought them back to their motel. Since all three of them were exhausted, Theresa and Garrett said good-bye quickly, and both Theresa and Kevin were in bed by the time Garrett arrived back at his house.
The following day, Garrett took them out for their first ocean dive. After the initial nervousness wore off, they began to enjoy themselves and ended up going through two tanks each over the course of the afternoon. Thanks to the calm, coastal weather, the water was clear, with excellent visibility. Garrett took a few photos of them as they explored one of the shallow-water wrecks off the North Carolina coast. He promised to have them developed that week and to send them up as soon as he could.
They spent the evening at Garrett's house again. After Kevin fell asleep, Garrett and Theresa sat close to each other on the deck, caressed by the warm, humid air.
After talking about their earlier dive, Theresa was quiet for a little while. "I can't believe we'll be leaving tomorrow night," she said finally, a trace of sadness in her voice. "These last couple of days have flown by."
"That's because we've been so busy."
She smiled. "Now you have a sense of what my life is like in Boston."
"Always racing around?"
She nodded. "Exactly. Kevin is the best thing that ever happened to me, but he sometimes wears me out. He always has to be doing something."
"You wouldn't change it, though, would you? I mean, you don't want to raise a TV junkie or a kid who sits in his room listening to music all day, do you?"
"No."
"Then count your blessings. He's a great kid--I've really enjoyed spending time with him."
"I'm so glad. I know he feels the same way." She paused. "You know, even though we haven't spent much time alone on this trip, it seems like I know you a lot better now than when I first came down here by myself."
"What do you mean? I'm still the same guy I was before."
She smiled. "You are and you aren't. The last time I was here, you had me all to yourself, and we both know it's easier to get involved with someone when you can spend a lot of exclusive time together. This time, you saw what it would really be like with Kevin around... and yet you handled the whole thing better than I could have imagined."
"Well, thanks, but it wasn't that hard. As long as you're around, it doesn't matter what we do. I just like spending time with you."
He put his arm around her, pulling her close. She rested her head on his shoulder. In the silence, they listened as the waves rolled up along the beach.
"Are you going to stay over again tonight?" he asked.
"I was giving it some serious consideration."
"Would you want me to be a perfect gentleman again?"
"Maybe. Maybe not."
He raised his eyebrows. "Are you flirting with me?"
"I'm trying," she confessed, and he laughed. "You know, Garrett, I really feel comfortable around you."
"Comfortable? You make it sound like I'm a couch."
"I don't mean it like that. I mean I just feel good about myself when we're together."
"You should. I feel pretty good about you."
"Pretty good? That's it?"
He shook his head. "No, that's not all." He looked almost bashful for a second. "After you left the last time, my dad came in and lectured me."
"What did he say?"
"He said that if you made me happy, that I shouldn't let you go."
"And how do you intend to do that?"
"I guess I'll have to bowl you over with my charisma."
"You've already done that."
He glanced at her, then looked out over the water. After a moment he spoke quietly. "Then I guess I'll have to tell you that I love you."
I love you.
Overhead, the stars were out in full, twinkling in the darkened sky. Distant clouds rode the horizon, reflecting the light of a crescent moon. Theresa listened as the words rolled through her head again.
I love you.
No ambivalence this time, no doubt about what he'd said.
"Do you really?" she whispered finally.
"Yes," he said, turning to face her, "I do." When he answered, she saw something in his eyes she hadn't seen before.
"Oh, Garrett...," she began uncertainly, before Garrett interrupted her with a shake of his head.
"Theresa, I don't expect you to feel the same way. I just wanted you to know how I feel." He thought for a moment and found himself remembering the dream he'd had. "Over the last two weeks, a lot of things have happened...." He paused.
She started to say something, but Garrett shook his head. It took a moment for him to continue.
"And I'm not sure I understand everything, but I do know how I feel about you."
His finger gently moved across her cheek and lips. "I love you, Theresa."
"I love you, too," she said softly, trying out the words and hoping they were true.
They held each other for a long time afterward, then went inside and made love, whispering to each other until the early morning hours. But this time, after Theresa went to the bedroom, Garrett slept soundly while Theresa stayed awake, thinking about the miracle that had brought them together.
The next day passed wonderfully. Whenever they had a chance, Garrett and Theresa held hands, stealing a few furtive kisses when Kevin wasn't looking.
They spent their day practicing as they had before, and once they had finished their final diving lesson, Garrett gave them their temporary certificates right on the boat. "You can dive whenever and wherever you want now," he said to Kevin, who handled the certificate almost as if it were gold. "Just send this form in and you'll have your PADI certificate in a couple of weeks. But remember--it's never safe to dive alone. Always go with someone else."
Since it was their last day in Wilmington, Theresa checked them out of the motel, and the three of them went to Garrett's house. Kevin wanted to spend their last few hours on the beach, and Theresa and Garrett sat with him near the water's edge. For a while Garrett and Kevin played Frisbee, and realizing it was getting late in the afternoon, Theresa went inside and found something to eat.
They had a quick dinner on the back deck--hot dogs on the grill--before Garrett drove them to the airport. After Theresa and Kevin had safely boarded, Garrett stayed a few minutes, watching until the plane finally began to back out of the gate. When it drew out of sight, he walked back to the truck and returned home, already watching the clock to see how long it would be until he could call her that evening.
In their seats,
Theresa and Kevin thumbed through magazines. Halfway through the first leg of their trip home, Kevin suddenly turned to her and asked: "Mom, do you like Garrett?"
"Yes, I do. But more important, do you like him?"
"I think he's cool. For a grownup, I mean."
Theresa smiled. "You two seemed to have hit it off. Are you glad we came?"
He nodded. "Yeah, I'm glad." He paused, fidgeting with the magazine. "Mom, can I ask you something?"
"Anything."
"Are you gonna marry Garrett?"
"I don't know. Why?"
"Do you want to?"
It took her a few moments to answer. "I'm not sure. I do know that I don't want to marry him right now. We're still getting to know each other."
"But you might want to marry him in the future?"
"Maybe."
Kevin looked relieved. "I'm glad. You seemed like you were really happy when you were with him."
"Could you tell?"
"Mom, I'm twelve. I know more than you think."
She reached over and touched his hand. "Well, what would you have said if I'd told you I did want to marry him now?"
He was quiet for a moment. "I guess I'd wonder where we were gonna live."
For the life of her, Theresa couldn't think of a good response. Where indeed?
CHAPTER 11
Four days after Theresa left Wilmington, Garrett had another dream, only this time it was about Catherine. In the dream they were in a grassy field bordered by a cliff overlooking the ocean. They were walking together, holding hands and talking, when Garrett said something that made her laugh. All at once she broke away from him. Looking over her shoulder and laughing, she called for Garrett to chase her. He did, laughing as well, feeling much as he had the day they were married.
Watching her run, he couldn't help but notice how beautiful she was. Her flowing hair reflected the light of the high yellow sun, her legs were lean and moving rhythmically, effortlessly. Her smile, despite the fact she was running, looked easy and relaxed, as if she were standing still.
"Chase me, Garrett. Can you catch me?" she called.
The sound of laughter after she said it floated in the air around him, sounding musical.
He was slowly gaining on her when he noticed that she was heading toward the cliff. In her excitement and joy, she didn't seem to realize where she was going.
But that's ridiculous, he thought. She has to know.
Garrett called for her to stop, but instead she began to run faster.
She was approaching the edge of the cliff.