‘Okay.’ Sophie’s fingers hovered over the keyboard. ‘What kind of party were you thinking of?’
CHAPTER THIRTEEN
THE rest of the week passed in a flash for Sophie. She and Melissa had come up with plenty of ideas for Sophie to chase up, and, being virtually last minute, the invitations had to be printed and sent pronto. She wondered why Jared had left it so late—if it had been an idea he’d had on the spur of the moment or whether he’d been too busy and forgotten.
The evenings were spent together in her apartment, but sometimes if he finished work early they went out for dinner or caught a movie. He surprised her one night at a club where she discovered he was a pretty cool dancer.
One thing didn’t change. They couldn’t keep their hands off each other. Sometimes it was in a rush of heat and energy, at other times the mood was slow and lazy. Always both familiar and sparkling new. Always exciting.
She let her fun, flirtatious side fly and kept her darker emotions firmly bolted down. There’d be a time when she’d have to take them out and confront them, and that time loomed like a storm on the horizon.
The phone rang late on Saturday afternoon. According to Jared, Crystal and Ian were taking a well-deserved break and were having dinner out, Jared’s treat. He was babysitting Arabella for a few hours and would see Sophie around eleven p.m.
Sophie was relieved that he hadn’t asked her to join him at Crystal’s place. She didn’t want the ordeal of seeing baby Arabella again. Last night she and Jared had been to a concert in Brisbane and hadn’t arrived home till after midnight. She’d spent the day sorting through stuff and packing and they had no definite plans for this evening.
So when the buzzer sounded around seven while Sophie was ironing, she was unprepared for the sight of Jared and baby Arabella at her front door.
He smiled at Sophie, and with Arabella tucked up against him, her tiny face over his heart, Sophie’s own heart felt as if it were being squeezed in a vice. That was Sophie’s favourite place too.
Stupid to be jealous of a baby. To be jealous of Jared because it was all so easy for him, so natural, so inevitable that he’d probably have his own baby in a few years and she’d never have the chance. Stupid to be so jealous she wanted to lash out at him for her own inadequacies. Stupid, stupid, stupid.
She bit her lip. She was not going to cry. Not in front of Jared. Never in front of Jared. He held a baby capsule in his free hand. Sophie did not offer to help. ‘What are you doing here?’
‘I couldn’t get her to settle,’ was his excuse. ‘I thought a drive might help.’
Arabella’s eyes were closed, the eyelids so fragile they were almost transparent. Sophie wanted to reach out and touch the silky, sweet-smelling skin. To snatch her away and cuddle her against her own breast. Over her own heart. ‘She looks just fine to me.’
Looking away, Sophie walked back to her ironing task, leaving Jared to put the capsule down so that he could close the door.
‘She is. Now,’ he said, bringing baby and carrier to the sofa. ‘The car’s motion put her to sleep.’
‘Great.’ She smoothed a blouse over the ironing board. ‘So what’s the problem?’
‘But she woke the moment I stopped,’ he went on. ‘So I’ve been walking up and down your street for the past fifteen minutes. She’s just dropped off again but I’ve got a sneaky feeling she’s going to wake up the moment I put her in her capsule and I only have one bottle of milk left.’
‘Then don’t.’ Please don’t. She didn’t want to have to notice her. A newborn’s cry set off emotions she didn’t want to deal with. Especially not with Jared watching on.
‘I have to, Sophie, so I can get her stuff out of the car. Unless you want to hold her?’
She picked up the iron, swiped it over the garment in front of her. ‘Try putting her in her capsule first.’
‘Didn’t think so,’ he murmured, almost to himself. He peeled Arabella off him with the greatest care and laid her in her carrier. She snuffled but didn’t wake. ‘I’ll get her gear. Be back in a jiff.’ Then he was gone.
And in the perverse way of things, Arabella woke at that moment with a snorting noise that quickly turned to hiccuping sobs and finally one piercing wail.
Sophie told herself the baby was perfectly safe, that the sound was normal baby noise. That Jared would be back any moment. She closed her eyes as another howl rent the air and tried to resist but…oh, it was like…telling your heart to stop beating.
When Sophie turned, the little face was scrunched up and red, her tiny fists were waving in the air. And, oh… It seemed…it seemed Sophie’s legs had a will of their own.