“I didn’t understand how I had finally found you then lost you just as quickly,” he confesses.
Tears stream down my face as my heart aches for him. How I treated him was worse than what I thought he had done to me. I ghosted him and ran halfway across the world, for what?
“I hurt you, Ali. There arenotenough words to say that can make up for treating you like I did. I don’t think I can apologize enough for hurting you the way that I have,” I tell him honestly as I look up at him through tear-soaked lashes.
“That blow job was a pretty good apology,” he jokes, which makes me smile. He wipes away my tears again.How the hell did I walk away from this man?
“When I get scared, I run,” I tell him.
He runs his thumb across my lip. “Was I that scary?” he questions me with a smirk.
“For my heart, you were,” I reply honestly. My confession stops him as if he wasn’t quite sure he heard what I had said. “You made me want things that I had never wanted before …” I continue confessing my thoughts because I owe him that much, “… risking everything I had been working toward for all these years. No one ever made me do that before until you. Then when one of the girls told me about the good time she’d had with you, all my fears came true. And in that moment, I ran. No one could have talked me out of it … my flight instinct kicked in, and I was gone.”
“I’m going to find out who this Mr. King is who fucked everything up for me,” Alistair tells me. I can see it on his face that his words are serious. “I loathe that whoever it was broke what we had.”
“That person didn’t, though.I did.I blew up whatever was happening between us at that time. If I had just asked you about it that night, all this wouldn’t have happened.” That knot in my stomach twists a little tighter.
“Well, I’m sorry I made you doubt me,” Alistair says.
He didn’t do a damn thing. He owes me no apologies, I brought this on all myself. He set up a dream date, he waited for me, he looked for me, he made an effort, and I didn’t. I took the easy way out. I roll over onto his chest so that I’m straddling him.
“You have nothing to apologize for,” I tell him as I feel his dick twitch between us.Is he hard again?I rub myself along his length and feel him fully harden beneath my touch. “I’m the one who should be making it up to you,” I tell him as I reach between us and slide his tip between my wet folds.
Alistair groans as I tease him against my entrance.
“I don’t think I will stop until things are right between us,” I say as I sink down on his length. We both hiss at the connection.
How have I gone so long without him?
He is only here for a week.That thought pops into my head as I begin to ride him. No. Whatever doubts you are having in your mind in this moment, they do not exist. I will not let them ruin this moment. They can cloud my mind when he’s gone. I have no idea how I’m going to say goodbye to him for a second time.
“This feels right,” he groans out. As he smiles up at me, my silky robe exposes my chest to him while his hands begin to caress my breasts. His fingers are plucking my nipples as I ride him.
“You like this apology?” I chuckle. My body breaks out in goosebumps as a breeze from the ocean slides across my skin.
“Fuck, yeah.” He moans as we begin to lose ourselves in the moment once again. I arch my back and take him deeper, his dick hitting the exact spot inside me that makes my thighs quake.
Then Alistair sits up, so we are chest to chest, taking me deeper as he wraps his hand around the back of my neck and pulls me to his lips, connecting us at every point. We lose ourselves in the kiss as we slowly move to the natural rhythm between us, neither of us in any rush, both of us savoring the moments we have missed between each other until we can’t hold on any longer, and we fall into oblivion together.
Alistair falls back and takes me with him, then rolls me onto my back getting sand everywhere. “Fuck, I’ve missed you,” he says, kissing me again.
“Me too,” I relay truthfully.
“Good! Now come on, let’s get back to that villa and scrub this sand off us. Then let me show you all the ways I have missed you.” He grins.
Alistair rolls off me and holds out his hand for me to take.