I smile. I can’t remember the last time Bennie cared about stuff like this. And I love it, because it means he isn’t thinking short-term with Drew…and a guy like Drew is a keeper. You’re one of the best-dressed men in Osaka. I’m sure you’ll be fine. Just be yourself. They’ll see you’re smart, funny and loyal and awesome for Drew.
I dunno. Ugh. I hate this. This is why I don’t date seriously.
I chuckle as a bite into the sandwich, which isn’t too bad for hospital cafeteria food. Ha. You never dated seriously because that was BD.
What the hell is BD?
Before Drew.
There’s a pause, then he writes, WTF. Jon’s in a relationship, and the chick isn’t you. That cheating fucker. How can he do this publicly on Facebook? What the hell’s going on?
Are you stalking him?
No. I friended him after you said you were dating.
We weren’t really dating. And he probably gave up because I stopped seeing him after that one time. Too busy.
Can we send anthrax to The Bastard?
No. I sigh. I need to tell him. We’re back together.
WHAT?
It’s a long story, but… I type him a super-condensed version.
You went to him?
Yes.
That was a bad move.
But he came to my place first.
Probably to drag your prone and lifeless body to work.
Come on, Bennie. Be fair.
Fine. He MIGHT have wanted to check up on you. Still…I don’t like it.
Why do you hate him so much?
Don’t hate him. Well, maybe a little. I think he’s pretty fucked up, and rich people are extra fucked up because money gives them a certain immunity. They get away with shit we can’t.
I sigh. Bennie used to get into fights with some of the kids in the neighborhood, and since their parents had more money and actually gave a damn, unlike his drunk dad, they always made sure Bennie paid with heaps of humiliation and insults hurled his way. I know, but it’s different, I type back.
You going to tell him about Mia?
I’m going to have to.
I wish you’d ended up with a guy who’s not going to complicate your life.
He’s worth every complication.
Then do it. The longer you wait, the harder it’s gonna be.
Don’t I know it. I’ve already lost chances to tell Lucas. Honestly, the best time to tell him was back in Charlottesville, when he first saw Mia. Still, better late than never. I just have to find a good opening to tell him without damaging our relationship. I believe in our love, but I also know it’s still fragile because of our past and personalities.
When Ray and Darcy visit with Mia…I’ll tell him. He can hold her if he wants to, but I also want him to understand Ray and Darcy are fabulous parents to Mia, and we can have other children of our own. And we can always see her. Unlike most adoption cases, it’s not like Darcy and Ray are strangers.