37
Ruby
Two weekssince our admission that our relationship is beyond friendship and sex, and life takes on a weird normality. Studio time finished, I return to my everyday job at the cafe and Jem fills his days too. I’m not a hundred percent sure what with. He mentions meeting people, checking in with counsellors, or catching up with Bryn or Liam occasionally, but even though he’s out more, most of the time he stays in the house.
I expected Jem to be more sociable, but after years of being overwhelmed by the outside world, I can understand why he prefers to hide for a while.
I’m living with Jem on a semi-permanent basis now; we’ve discussed this as a ‘see how we go’. I’m wary, but a larger part of me knows this is where I should be right now.
For a few days, Jem insists on taking me to and from work until I assure him I feel safe. Since Dan’s arrest, he hasn’t contacted me. Maybe now someone outside of us knows, Dan realises he has to be careful—perhaps a lawyer told him. I don’t know.
Jem’s doubtful about letting me go alone, but knows my opinions on him trying to take care of me. After an argument, Jem backs off. He doesn’t always back off, and as we’re both prone to moodiness, and because Jem is used to getting his own way in everything he does, we clash. Sometimes snide remarks; occasionally, arguments followed by sulking, but always ending up in bed working things out when words fail. This is how we’ll always be together, because neither of us is likely to drop back on our personalities for another person.
Exhausted after a double shift, I arrive home to Jem’s and flop on his sofa. Despite being in a busy suburb, I marvel at how quiet here can be, even when the rush hour traffic passes outside. Jem’s house is set back from the street, bordered by trees for privacy. Kicking my shoes off, I rest my feet on the coffee table and my head on the cushions, soaking up the peace.
Footsteps descend the stairs and I open an eye as Jem walks into the room. I tip my head back and he bends to kiss my lips as he stands behind the sofa.
“Hard day at work, darling?” he says.
“Terrible. Pass me my newspaper and slippers.”
We both smirk at our daily joke and he moves around to sit next to me.
“Done much today, Jem Jones?”
“Yeah, I have actually,” he replies and flicks my ear. “I’ve listened to the Ruby Riot tracks and chatted to the sound guy about cleaning some up. I don’t think they’re quite there yet.”
“Cool. Can we hear?” I twist around on the sofa and lay my head in Jem’s lap, looking up at him. He strokes my cheek with his rough fingertips and I close my eyes. Something soothes whenever I’m with this man. In a quiet moment, when we’re both calm, the space we’re in holds us together and happy.
“Patience; you will.” Jem strokes my hair. “I reckon the tracks will be done by the time we get back.”
“Back from where?”
“I want to go away. Take you somewhere for a weekend.”
“I’m working this weekend and I can’t take any more time off.”
“Well, whenever you’re not working for a couple of days. You can’t work seven days a week.”
“Where?”
“Dunno. Where do you want to go?”
My mind blanks. I’ve never left the UK. I longed to go to the States once-over, and I know Jem has places over there, but what if there’s a collection of Kristies ready to jump out of the closet?
“I think you have more idea of the world than I do.”
“Do you like beaches? Cities? Countryside?”
I pull a face. “I wouldn’t know. I don’t go on holiday.”
“No?”
“No.” I chew my thumbnail. “I don’t think I’d like the beach. And I don’t want to go anywhere people will follow us around—because they’re starting to.”
Jem huffs and twirls some of my hair around his hand. “Well, you are Jem Jones’s girlfriend.”
I can’t help the little surge of butterflies in my stomach on the rare occasions he calls me that. “Yeah, I told you not to hold my hand in public, you old romantic.”