“I don’t know.”
“What are you thinking?” Chloe asked.
“I don’t know. I don’t know what I’m thinking. I don’t know what I feel. I’m torn about everything.” Pixie had taken her choice out of getting pregnant, and she didn’t know what to do or to even think about that. She loved him, and he said that he loved her.
“Do you want me to kick his ass?”
Suzy laughed. “No. I’ll kick it when I think the time is right.”
“So you’re going to see him again.”
“I’m not going to stop seeing him, Chloe. He’s the father of my child. That was weird.”
“Totally. Wow, you’re going to have a baby. Pixie’s baby. I never thought I’d see the day that he’d settle down, and yet he’s going to do it with you.”
“Do you really think he loves me, or do you think he was just saying that because he knew what he’d done?” Suzy nibbled her lip, hoping her fears weren’t right.
“He loves you, Suzy. I’ve seen a change in him, and it wasn’t overnight either. I’ve noticed it for the past year, even before that. He wanted you, and he’s worked hard to try and get you. How do you feel?”
“Even as it hurts right now with what he’s done, I miss him.” She wiped the tears from her eyes. “What do I do about my job?”
“I don’t know. James won’t take sides. I bet he’s really pissed right now at his brother.”
“I don’t want him to get in trouble,” Suzy said.
“He won’t. James probably already knows. All the guys go to him for problems.” Chloe pushed her hair out of her face.
“I haven’t asked you how you’re doing.”
“I’m not the one that has turned up pregnant. That is certainly a new one, right.”
“Yeah. How are you and Richard?”
“Difficult. I never expected it to be hard, but then I should have known it wouldn’t be easy.”
Closing her eyes, they settled into the sofa.
“Shall I order takeout?” Chloe asked.
“Please.”
****
The following day Suzy stood in James’s office after avoiding seeing Pixie. She saw the pity in several of the club members’ eyes, and it made her feel sick. This was what she had hoped to avoid, yet it wasn’t even down to the fact he dumped her.
“I’m not going to let you quit,” James said.
“You know the truth?”
“I was the one that told him to tell you the truth. Think about it, Suzy, he could have just said a condom broke. No matter how much you’re hurting right now, he did tell you the truth.”
She nodded. “I wasn’t asking if I could quit. I just wanted to make sure I still had a job. Pixie is your brother.”
“I know my brother very well. I know he’s not the easiest man to get along with. Damn, he’s not even the easiest man to like.” James stopped. “But with you I saw him change. He’ll still be my asshole little brother, but I finally got to see the true Pixie. The guy he keeps on hiding.”
Tears filled her eyes and spilled down her face. “I don’t know what to do.”
“Don’t do anything. Just know that we all care about you, and about Pixie. I truly hope someday you can find it in your heart to forgive him.” James stood and rounded the desk. He held his arms open. “This is not a come on, or anything. I just want to give the woman, the mother of my future niece or nephew, a hug.”