father behind??
?I know,? she said, knowing full well she?d be hurting her father
far worse than her mother ever did, but also knowing that she
would do it for Lucas?for both of them.
?I understand if you can?t do this?? he began, but Helen cut him
off.
?If they won?t let us stay together, we have no choice. We have to
run away.?
?It won?t be forever,? he said, trying to console her as well as himself.
?Just until we can figure out a way around this. And we will
figure it out. There has to be a way.?
?I?ve thought of something,? Helen said, her whole body going
still. She felt Lucas tense.
?I think I know where you?re going with this, and I don?t think I
want to hear you say it,? he said uncertainly.
?What if I wasn?t a virgin?? Helen said quickly, just to get it over
with.
?I?m not sharing you, Helen,? he replied immediately. ?Besides, it
won?t work.?
?I?m serious, we have to consider it,? she insisted, struggling in
his arms until he loosened his grip enough for her to lean back and
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look at him. ?Tell me the truth. Would you stop wanting me if I was
with someone else first??
?Of course not,? he said, smiling tenderly at her. ?And I don?t just
want you, Helen. I love you. Big di
fference.?
?Okay, look. I hate to even think about this, but I?ll do it,? Helen
pleaded as Lucas started to shake his head vehemently. ?I love you,
too, and I?ll do whatever I have to do if it will let us be together.