Maybe Someday - Page 19

Me: I took him with me. The courts thought he stayed with my parents, but he moved in with me. Well, with Warren. Weve been friends since we were fourteen. Both of his parents are deaf, which is how he knows ASL. Once I became emancipated, they allowed me and Brennan to stay with them. My parents still had guardianship over Brennan, but as far as they were concerned, I did them a huge favor by taking him off their hands.

Sydney: Well, that was incredibly considerate of Warrens parents.

Me: Yes, theyre great people. Not sure why Warren turned out the way he did, though.

She laughs.

Sydney: Did they continue to raise Brennan after you left for college?

Me: No, we actually only stayed with them for seven months. When I turned seventeen, I moved us into an apartment. I dropped out of school and got a GED so I could start college sooner.

Sydney: Wow. So you raised your brother?

Me: Hardly. Brennan lived with me, but he was never the type who could be raised. He was fourteen when we got our own place. I was only seventeen. As much as Id like to say I was the responsible, mature adult, I was quite the opposite. Our apartment became the hangout for everyone who knew us, and Brennan partied just as hard as I did.

Sydney: That shocks me. You seem so responsible.

Me: I wasnt as wild as I probably could have been, being on my own at that young an age. Luckily, all our money went to bills and rent, so I never got into any bad habits. We just liked to have fun. Our band was formed when Brennan was sixteen and I was nineteen, so that took up a lot of our time. Thats also the year I started dating Maggie, and I calmed down a lot after that.

Sydney: Youve been with Maggie since you were nineteen?

I nod but dont text her back. My food has hardly been touched from all the texting, so I pick up my burger. She does the same, and we eat until both of us are finished. We stand up and clear off the table. Then she gives me a wave and heads off to her room. I sit on the couch and turn on the TV. After about fifteen minutes of channel surfing, I finally stop on a movie channel. The captioning has been turned off on the TV, but I dont bother turning it back on. Im too tired to read and follow along with the movie, anyway.

The door to Sydneys bedroom opens, and she walks out, looking slightly startled when she sees Im still awake. Shes in one of her baggy shirts again, and her hair is wet. She walks back to her room, then comes out with her phone and sits on the couch with me.

Sydney: Im not tired. What are you watching?

Me: I dont know, but it just started.

She pulls her feet up and rests her head on the arm of the couch. Her eyes are on the TV, but my eyes are on her. I have to admit, the Sydney who went out tonight is a completely different Sydney from the one lying here. Her makeup is gone, her hair is no longer perfect, her clothes even have holes in them, and I cant help but laugh just looking at her. If I were Hunter, Id be punching myself in the face right now.

Shes beginning to lean forward for her phone when she cuts her eyes in my direction. I want to look back at the TV and pretend she didnt just catch me staring at her, but that would make this even more awkward. Luckily, she doesnt seem to care that I was looking at her, because she gives her attention to her phone.

Sydney: How are you watching this without captions?

Me: Too tired to read along right now. Sometimes I just like to watch movies without captions and try to guess what theyre saying.

Sydney: I want to try it. Put it on mute, and well deaf-watch it together.

I laugh. Deaf-watch? Thats a new one. I point the remote to the TV and press the mute button. She turns her attention back to the TV, but once again, I fail to look away from her.

I dont understand my sudden obsession with staring at her, but I cant seem to stop. Shes several feet away. We arent touching. We arent speaking. She isnt even looking at me. Yet the simple fact that Im staring at her makes me feel incredibly guilty, as if Im doing something wrong. Staring is harmless, so why do I feel so guilty?

I attempt to talk myself out of the feelings of guilt, but deep down, I know exactly whats happening.

I dont feel guilty simply because Im staring at her. I feel guilty for how its making me feel.


This makes twice in a row Ive been woken up like this. I push away the hand thats slapping me and open my eyes. Warren is standing over me. He slaps a piece of paper on my chest, then whacks his hand against the side of my head. He walks to the front door and grabs his keys, then leaves for work.

Why is he going to work this early?

I pick up my phone, and it says 6:00 A.M. I guess hes not leaving early.

I sit up on the couch and see Sydney still curled up at the other end, sound asleep. I pull the paper from Warren off my chest and look down at it.

How about you go to your room and sleep in the bed with your girlfriend!

I wad up the note and stand, then take it to the trash can and bury it. I go back to the couch, put my hand on Sydneys shoulder, and shake her awake. She rolls onto her back and rubs her eyes, then looks up at me.

She smiles when she sees me. Thats it. All she did just now was smile, but all of a sudden, my chest is on fire, and it feels as if a wave of heat just rolled down the entire length of my body. I recognize this feeling, and its not good. Its not good at all. I havent felt this way since I was nineteen.

Since I first began developing feelings for Maggie.

I point to Sydneys room to let her know she should go to bed, then quickly turn around and head into my bedroom. I pull off my jeans and T-shirt and softly slide into bed next to Maggie. I wrap my arms around her, pull her against my chest, and spend the next half hour falling asleep to a broken record of reminders.

Youre in love with Maggie.

Maggies perfect for you.

Youre perfect for her.

She needs you.

Youre happy when youre with her.

Youre with the one and only girl youre meant to be with.

10.

Sydney

Its been two weeks since Ridge and I have worked on lyrics together. A few days after Maggie went home, Ridge ended up leaving for six days because of a family emergency. He was vague about what the emergency was, but it reminded me of when I still lived with Tori and he was absent from his balcony for several days. A family emergency was his excuse then, too.

Based on conversations Ive heard Warren have on the phone with Brennan, I know it didnt have anything to do with Brennan. But hes never mentioned having family other than Brennan. When Ridge returned a few days ago, I asked him if everything was okay and he said things were fine. He didnt seem to want to share any details, and Im trying to remind myself that his personal life is none of my concern.

Ive immersed myself in school, and every now and then, Ill attempt to write lyrics on my own, but it isnt the same when I dont have the music to go along with it. Ridge has been home for a few days now, but hes spent most of his time in his room catching up on work, and I cant help but wonder if hes kept his distance for other reasons.

Ive been hanging out with Warren a lot and have learned more about his relationship with Bridgette. I havent had any more interactions with her, so as far as I know, she still assumes Im deaf.

Based on what Warren has told me, their relationship is anything but typical. Warren never met Bridgette before she moved in six months ago, but shes a longtime friend of Brennans. Warren says that he and Bridgette dont get along at all, and during the day, they live separate lives. But at night, its a completely different story. He has tried to go into more detail than I care to hear, so I force him to shut up when he begins to overshare.

Im really wishing he would shut up right now, because hes in the midst of one of his oversharing moments. I have to leave for class in half an hour, and Im trying to finish reading a last-minute chapter, but hes intent on telling me all about last night and how he wouldnt let her take her Hooters uniform off because he likes to role-play, and oh, my God, why does he think I care to hear this?

Luckily, Bridgette walks out of her room, and its more than likely the first time Ive ever been happy to see her.

Good morning, Bridgette, Warren says, his eyes following her across the living room. Sleep well?

Screw you, Warren, she says in return.

Im beginning to understand that this is their typical morning greeting. She walks into the kitchen and glances at me, then at Warren seated next to me on the couch. She narrows her eyes at him and turns toward the refrigerator. Ridge is at the dining-room table, concentrating on his laptop.

I dont like how shes up your ass all the time, Bridgette says with her back to me.

Warren looks at me and laughs. Apparently, Bridgette still assumes I cant hear her, but Im not finding much humor in the fact that shes talking shit about me.

She spins around and eyes Warren. You think thats funny? she says to him. The girl obviously has it bad for you, and you cant even respect me enough to distance yourself from her until Im out of the house? She turns her back to us again. First she gives Ridge some sob story so hell let her move in, and now shes taking advantage of the fact that you know sign language so she can flirt with you.

Bridgette, stop. Warren isnt laughing anymore, because he can see how white my knuckles are, clasped around my book. I think hes afraid Bridgettes about to get hit upside the head with a hardback. Hes right to be afraid.

You stop, Warren, she says, turning back around to face him. Either stop crawling into bed with me at night or stop shacking up on the couch with her during the day.

I drop my book onto my lap with a loud slap, then kick my feet up and down against the floor out of frustration, anger, and flat-out annoyance. I cant put up with this girl for another second.

Bridgette, please! I yell. Shut up! Shut up, shut up, shut up! Christ! I dont know why you think Im deaf, and Im definitely not a whore, and Im not using sign language to flirt with Warren. I dont even know sign language. And from now on, please stop yelling when you speak to me!

Bridgette cocks her pretty little head, and her mouth hangs open in shock. She silently stares at me for several seconds. No one in the room makes a move. She turns her attention to Warren, and the anger in her eyes is replaced with hurt. She immediately looks away once the hurt takes over, and she heads straight back to her room.

I glance over to see Ridge staring at me, more than likely wondering what the hell just happened. I lean my head back against the couch and sigh.

I was hoping that would feel good, but it didnt feel good at all.

Well, Warren says, there goes my chance to act out all the role-playing scenes Ive been imagining. Thanks a lot, Sydney.

Screw you, Warren, I say, understanding a little bit where Bridgettes attitude comes from.

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